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340 days of logging in and going strong!!

Tuesday, November 17, 2015

I get closer and closer to a year of logging in everyday. I also spin the wheel, blog, read articles and visit my teams. I also love to spin the bonus spins for my teams. I am down to five teams. Hoping for some suggestions about some good teams to join. I just joined the Bipolar team and am really glad I did. Wow! People just like me!! Not only trying to lose weight, but dealing with a difficult mental illness at the same time. Considering the medication we must take to remain stable, it is a wonder we ever lose weight. There are so many side affects. Weight gain being one of the biggies!! I have been prediabetic before due in part to medication and the 100 pounds it helped me gain!! I have also had high cholesterol and high triglycerides due to being 100 pounds over weight. I ended up having a partial knee replacement as I could no longer handle the pain the arthritis in my knee was causing me. Of course, that extra weight didn't help at all!!

I lost a majority of the weight from 2010 to 2011. I didn't do much in 2012. 2013 I walked 200 miles in 3 months in the spring. That was a great time. I would walk for 10 minutes and finally got up to a half hour. I had several routes I would take and I usually went out at 6 am. I wasn't sleeping very well or should I say I was going to bed about 7 pm and getting up at 3 am. Guess it was enough, just kinda hard in an apartment with someone living below me.

2013 was a rocky year for me. I spent 8 weeks in 3 different hospitals. Lost 25 pounds really fast from not eating and was very unhealthy physically, emotionally and spiritually. I don't remember all that happened that year. The pieces just don't fall into place like I wish they would. I have read my medical records and still have no recollection of many events that happened around me. I was totally out of it. My brain was on overload and I just shut down. It didn't help that I quit taking the medication that helps me live a "normal" life. Whatever that may be to you, normal to me is taking part in daily life. Getting out of my apartment 6 or 7 days a week. Attending my church and church functions. Teaching the lesson to the 9, 10 and 11 year old's on Sunday and trying to live the gospel everyday of my life. Granted I am not perfect. I do make mistakes and have to repent daily. It might be a bad thought or just something I have said that is unkind. I know some people don't consider that a sin or something with a need to repent for daily. I do. The more I repent the more I am able to say to myself, "You are a good person and I like you."

I am not always positive. I get depressed and have a hard time enjoying life or even participating in it. I stay away from those that love me and I end up isolating for a long time. My prayer today is that I continue to progress in both my healthy life and continue to be emotionally stable and spiritually strong.

Think about it>>>do you feel positive today? What can you do that will make you feel better? Can you exercise or eat a healthy breakfast? Can you pick up your child or grandchild and tell them you love them? Can you be yourself around others without fear you will be stigmatized and judged for past problems and events? I know it is a lot to think about. Maybe it is time we all thought about how we treat others that are different from us and gave them a smile and a nod without thinking, "I am so much better than they are."

Have a great day. And thanks for listening. I needed to blog this today and I feel better about myself just for doing the blog.
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    I'm glad you wrote this blog. I hadn't realized that weight gain was a side effect of your kind of medication. I knew that it is a side effect of many other medications.

    I think that you have done a great job in bringing down your weight and improving your overall health.

    I think your attitude toward life is great right now and I hope that you will always feel like this.

    Have a good week.

    1925 days ago
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    Impressive streak of logging in! emoticon
    1928 days ago
  • FRAN0426
    WTG with logging in almost for full year Angie.
    I have always been a person who enjoys smiling and saying hello to people I pass by. One never knows, you just might the person who make their day with a smile and a hello. Being positive as much as possible does make a great difference in our lives. I enjoyed reading your blog, and happy you were able to share your thoughts with us. Happy for you that it made you feel better for making this blog. Hope you have a great rest of the week Angie.
    1929 days ago
    Great job being so consistent on logging in!
    1929 days ago
    it's tough to stick to that login routine when you are up & down. I don't think people realize how difficult that is!

    WELL DONE!!!
    1930 days ago
    Thank you for sharing
    1931 days ago
    Thank you for sharing. Logging in that many days is fantastic. I would like to achieve that.
    1931 days ago
    Thank you TIMTARTRIS. I would like to be your friend. Please add me.
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    1931 days ago
    Awesome. Nice reflection
    1931 days ago
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