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Conversations with myself

Thursday, November 19, 2015

I have an inner five-year-old. She can be a lot of fun. She wants to have fun, she wants to play, she likes to have a good time, and lordy, can she whine. I realized what was happening last Tuesday. It was gloomy. It really does affect my mood quickly when there's no sun. I got home and I didn't FEEL like doing my homework and I didn't FEEL like scooping the litter box and I didn't FEEL like prepping my lunch for the next day and I didn't FEEL like folding my laundry and putting it away. So I didn't. By 7 o'clock, I started to feel really unhappy and that's when my inner responsible voice came along and gave my whiny inner five year old a kick in the seat. I was rather pleased with myself. "Oh, you don't feel like scooping the litter box, huh? I guess you feel like taking care of accidents when the cats decide to revolt. Don't feel like doing your homework? Okay, no worries. You can let your GPA slide. I'm sure the two Honors societies you're involved with will have no problem with that. Don't feel like working out or getting healthy snacks ready? I understand -- you'd rather lose a few toes or your vision or something." I was impressed. Who knew I had an inner drill sergeant with an ability to use reverse psychology? It was true, though! There are consequences to giving in to my inner whiner and not just the ones mentioned above. It starts a vicious cycle where I feel worse and worse about myself and then get sucked into depression. I learned two things from this: time to pull out the mood light in the mornings and responding with what will happen if I don't do something is a great way to keep going with my goals on days when I feel less than motivated. While I prefer to focus on the good, realizing that bad things will happen if I don't keep doing what I know I need to is as good a reason as any.

Life is good.
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  • ALICIA363
    I have that inner five year old in me, too...
    Way to self parent!
    1766 days ago
  • no profile photo CD15228402
    And so are you good!
    1768 days ago
    I had some smart voice in the back of my head today too... after this gloomy rainy lazy day. WE are not alone.
    Keep going...
    1768 days ago
    1768 days ago
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