Day 470 I know the benefits of some therapy very well.
Sunday, November 29, 2015
About 30 years ago when my first husband started having Vietnam flashbacks I knew I couldn't help him but needed ways to help me thru it. He died about a year after the worst of them but it took me several years of therapy to come to accept that I couldn't have helped him at all only myself. Since then I've been on and off of depression meds. The extra Xanax helped today.
My cousin called to report of her mom and it's not looking good. We are all trying to remember that Aunty Verna is almost 98 years old and luckily she has her mind it's her body that is giving up. So that is a report I will have to give to my parents on Mon. when I go to town.
As for me today I managed to eat my meals on schedule and not have any snacks. I worked on both Morgan's and Josie's quilts. And I started to crochet a little angel for my mom's decoration outside her door. I also saw a really cute pattern that is a long Christmas tree that will fit on her little wall she wants a decoration on.
I only had a short period of extreme sadness. That is a great improvement over the last 2 or 3 weeks.
Tomorrow I'm going to bake 2 8" pumpkin pies. One to take to mom because she missed it on Thanksgiving and one for me to enjoy. I just love stuff with pumpkin and cinnamon in it.
If I use one of those lighter sugars it's even not all bad for you.
We have a major storm headed our way for Mon. So I'll go to run mom into the doctor early. Because between Mon. morning and Tues. evening we have an expected 7 to 10" on the way. Yuck but it is winter in Minnesota what else can you expect.
Thank you all for your support. My family really only thinks I should just get over feeling depressed. Just not as easy as that. I does come in waves it feels like. Hoping my insurances will cover most of the cost.