I have been very unsettled the past few weeks. I finally figured out what it was that was bugging me.
I have really struggled to lose the little that I have, and went to a friends to visit. Her Dr put her on a diet to lose 40#'s, and she had already lost 10# in a month. I was so happy for her, but inside I decided to go on a little pity party. I let the worries, frustrations and jealousies drag me to a bad place. I lost control. Yep!! Forgot that I didn't have control to start with, so I couldn't lose it. I did however stray off the path. I "sneaked" a weigh yesterday and was not a happy camper.
But there is always a new day- TODAY- God only gives us one day at a time. The prayer "Give us our Daily Bread" applies more than ever. I am not a deep thinker so if I just focus on today, I don't have to worry about my granddaughter's medical problems, using someone else's measuring stick to measure my worth, my son's emotional problems or my spouse's medical problems. Letting go and letting God. That is a lesson that I get to learn quite frequently. Maybe some day I will get it right, and move on to a new lesson. I need to surrender my Fatitude Attitude and breathe in Grace, Patience and Peace.
I have joined a Mindful Eating team challenge to help me identify Hunger Sensations and Symptoms, and a team to help me overcome emotional eating. I need to remember my promise prayer. Have patience with myself and others, and find my happy place that brings me peace.
When I look at what I have done since the middle of September, I have done some good things. I have quit smoking, have made the commitment to a healthy lifestyle, and just need to keep on the path that is laid out. Taking a deep breathe and allowing all the negative thoughts to flow through and out of my mind, and holding the positive, life affirming ones.
I have also given in to temptations
Just for Today
I made an egg white/spinach omelet for breakfast ( good choice), and
I am removing myself from the computer for the rest of the day and doing some chair exercises.
Lunch will be a green salad and a protein.
Dinner trying the Spark Recipe for Skillet Lasagna