First and Last Entry of 2015
Monday, December 28, 2015
I hadn't realized until just now a whole year had passed since I last posted anything in this blog. I stopped blogging when I started hitting new transitions in my life. I'm realizing more and more that I don't handle transitions really well. Our family moved to a new country and we are learning a new language and culture as well as trying to learn who we are in this place. Our kids are going to a new school and my oldest will be moving away to the States where she will go to college next year.
Like I said, lots of transitions. When I am in the middle of transitions it feels like some things in life go on "pause". I just don't have the mental and emotional energy to deal with them. I had an injury to my foot last year along with a ton of other stressful things and it threw me for a loop. I intended to continue on in healthy eating but eventually got to the point where I just couldn't even think about it anymore and it was easier to fall back into old patterns.
Overall, I feel more emotionally and mentally healthy than I had been in the past. This move has been good for us, in spite of all the transitions. Physically, I'm the heaviest I've ever been. I also didn't realize that until I stepped on the scale yesterday for the first time in months. It also dawned on me this morning that the shorts I've been wearing that I thought fit so well, were my "fat" shorts that I'd been saving to remind me how far I'd come. These things have forced me to see that I need to make a change. I know I'm not perfect and I've had discouragements many times in the past but life is not about perfection. It is a journey.
I've started working on portion control and am signed up to start going through the book "100 Days of Weight Loss" starting on January 1st.