Time to Reignite the SPARK
Sunday, January 03, 2016
I used SparkPeople in the past to lose 100 pounds. But, obviously, I wasn't able to "maintain". I had heard rumors that maintaining was just as or even more difficult than losing. My 100 pound loss was followed by life circumstances that made maintenance more difficult. I just realized that I have been using those circumstances as EXCUSES. I've been acting like the victim and that has to stop. So I'm going to explain "my side of the story" once more and then put it to rest. Move on.
So I hit my 100 pound weight loss mark - 225 pounds on the scale. I hit that mark in October 2013, the same week that my mom died after a very short battle with cancer. I remember weighing in, seeing. 225, looking up at Heaven and whispering "Thanks Mom (for pulling for me)." Then my dad died seven days after my mom. He was also battling cancer and, I believe, lost his will to live. That was tough. Hello food. And hello 20 pounds over the course of the next year. Then, in July 2014, while my eating and exercising "habits" already sucked, I got pregnant with my first child. What a blessing but the bad habits only got worse coupled with hormones etc.
I had my precious angel in April 2015 and couldn't be happier. Minus the weight which I briefly "tried" to lose and then ended up gaining a bit.
Those are my excuses/circumstances/whatever
. I realize that I'm in the same mindset I was before losing 100 pounds in the first place. And that's not good. I'm just thankful I'm not back at ground zero - 325 pounds. So, here I am at 284 ready to do it again.
I realize that it's January and everyone is making resolutions. I've actually been trying (and failing) at this since before the holidays. Now I'm ready to put my nose to the grindstone and get to work.
I'm at the gym on a recumbent bike as I type this. I didn't plan to write a blog today or to get back on Spark. But I had several revelations in the locker room. One being that I am not a victim of circumstances. And two being that Spark helped before, and darn it, it need Spark to help me again. I need to track. I need to move. I need to exercise control.
So hello, my old Spark friends, I have truly missed you. Hello, new Spark friends, who are just starting or restarting this 2016 journey. Let's do this. For us. For our kids/families. For our LIVES.