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Almost 400 lbs.

Saturday, February 06, 2016

I posted something recently on the message boards and one of the replys I got really hit home with me. They said you are almost 400 lbs. That's right, just 21 lbs. short of weighing 400. When I first read this, it almost felt like they were talking about someone else, this can't be me, I wouldn't let myself get to almost 400 lbs., but I have ... and it's not a good place to be. All this extra weight is affecting me in such a negative way both physically and mentally.
It's like, well I know I weigh 378 lbs,, I know I am morbidly obese, but ... for some reason just hearing someone else say those words really hit home with me. I remember when I first went on a weight loss journey years ago and was mortified to find out I had reached the over 200 lb. mark. Oh how I wish I was that weight again right now.
The struggles with losing weight are the same as they were years ago (although 20 + years ago I had more energy and found it a little easier to exercise )
My reasons for wanting to lose weight have changed now though. In my 20's it was more about looking better first, then feeling better and being healthier.
This time being healthier is the most important thing to me. I am almost 50 years old and 200 lbs. overweight, not a good combo.
I keep starting and quitting, starting and quitting making one excuse after the other. Like Dr. Phil says " How's that working for you?"
It's not working for me, I wouldn't be almost 400 lbs. if it was.
I have been talking with my husband about my weight and have also been getting help dealing with my thoughts and emotions. It is such a battle but it is a fight that I must fight.
This is my life, I don't want to live what rest of life I have in pain, unhappy, unhealthy and regretting each day I let go by.
I also posted recently that this is going to be my year. This is going to be my year, maybe not the year I get to my ideal weight but he year I work towards getting healthier, being happier !
I have got myself in a major slump and It is getting me nowhere I want to be, fast.
Here's to a new year and the beginning of a new and improved me !
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    1823 days ago
    They could have said 'you are over 350 lbs' instead of 'nearly 400'. I think that 21 lbs are not nothing.

    I think it's great that you got help.

    I am 51 and unlike you, I struggle a lot more with losing weight than I used to... exercise is getting hard because of complaints that are weight-related.
    I just read your post about the treadmill: emoticon that you got one!
    If you are able to exercise, by all means try to get into a habit of doing it daily: they say that 250 minutes per week are helpful for weight loss. Just to take walks can become a pleasure.
    1838 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/22/2016 1:36:46 PM
  • FRANRN76
    I posted a blog today and i write something that had just hit me. Yes i started and the started again many times, but all these failures have set me up for success now. Its not a failure if you learn from it. I was 360# at my heaviest and 245# at my lowest (post gastric bypass). I regained to a whopping 328. I get disgusted when i admit that. But it happened, and now i have to live with it. I misused the tool that was given to me by going back to my old habits. Now I'm starting all over again. I still have some of the restriction from a smaller stomach, but I've got an addiction to food (sweets in particular).
    1852 days ago
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    1854 days ago
    Thanks for the words of encouragement everyone, really means a lot. And I love the idea of the 100 day exercise challenge ! Think I will give it a try !!!
    1854 days ago
  • no profile photo IAMFITBETTY
    The fact that you stop occasionally is not important. It's important that you keep starting over! That shows that you want this and you WILL do it. It really helped me to promise to do "Just 10 Minutes" of exercise every day for 100 days. I mean, anyone---even I---can do "Just 10 Minutes." I do it first thing in the morning and the whole day is better as a result. Sometimes I have the strength to do more, but not always. But I always get my "Just 10 Minutes" done. Maybe it would help you?
    Good luck with your great plans!
    We're doing this!!!

    1854 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/6/2016 12:41:23 PM
    Don't be down on yourself. Rome wasn't built in a day. Do your best.
    1854 days ago
    You can do this! One day at a time. One choice at a time. I started my journey about a year ago at 362. Today I weigh 270. Don't starve yourself but stay focused on the goal!
    1854 days ago
    I surely hope things work out for you. I was in a major slump too but I decided to change and its working for me. so, good luck to you and stay focused, we can do this!!!
    1854 days ago
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