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Feeling worn out!

Wednesday, February 10, 2016

I've got one hot boob. So hot it's crispy. LOL

I've been gaining about a pound a week. I guess these estrogen blockers make losing weight hard. I'll be working to get this weight off soon.

I've been going to the gym. Most days I ride the bike hard for an hour. Then there are days like today where I just have no energy and only go for 1/2 hour slowly.

I'm having a case of mood swings like you wouldn't believe but mostly because I'm tired and the burns hurt so bad.

My middle son got his cover done for his book by his publisher. I'm very proud of him.

My oldest son turned 41 and I don't understand it because that's how old I am.

My treatments are more localized now for the next 5 days so I can start healing and get into that pool soon.

I'll be so happy to get back on here. I miss everyone. It's just right now it seems like I have no time. I'm sleeping a lot and also have been sick. Then I'm going to need to get real serious about losing. I'm so upset about my gain. I'm also in tears a lot. I get up and get busy just to sit for a few minutes so I can get up again. I'm actually feeling good, it's really not that bad sometimes. And then there's these times.

Thank you Pam so much for sending me my Spark Tracker. It means so much to me. Thanks for the notes and goodies from everyone. I'm going to need to take a few days just to catch up with everyone.

(5 more treatments. I'll be done on Wed, I think)
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  • JIBBIE49
    My oldest son was 41 on 2/1.
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    1595 days ago
    Put those X's on your calendar because soon you won't have to.

    That's awesome to have a book published!
    1605 days ago

    5 days, that will be wonderful. Healing will come and you will be better and in the pool again soon. Don't agonize or beat yourself up right now over a few gains. In the grand scheme of losing, is it really worth the stress? I doubt it. You are doing wonderfully, on your own, facing a demon who is very powerful. Give yourself credit for all you DO do. You go to the gym while taking radical radiation treatment. HUGE SUCCESS right there, my friend. Your commitment to yourself and your strength is so admired right now, by myself and so many others. You ARE a winner because of all the things you are and do, aside from weightloss. It is not who you are , it is a change you are making and right now you need to take the recovery road. I believe in you and know that you are going to win all around with your treatments and your exercise at whatever level you can handle that day. You continue to amaze me, wonderful friend. emoticon

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    1607 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/11/2016 2:05:26 PM
    Prayers and all good thought for you dear gal. Be so glad when its over for you. Congrads on your son , the published author, I am sure he gets this from his MOM :)
    1607 days ago
    You're very welcome. I am amazed you are still going to the gym. I would be home, whining, I'm sure. You're almost there, just hang on a little bit longer. Very cool, your son being published. Let us know when it is released, I'm sure plenty of us would like to get it. I sometimes can't believe the numbers either (ages), including my own, don't feel that old! My oldest is 37 this year, and I can't believe it. Worse is how fast the grand kids are growing up. My oldest grandson is 21 this year and I still can't believe it because he was just a toddler, I swear. So glad you were able to check in. Less than one week, counting down! --Pam
    1607 days ago
    Just a little more. Sorry it's been so hard.
    1607 days ago
    You made me laugh with your son turning 41, and not understanding....I'm the same way! How can My daughter be 22? I'm not old enough to have a 22 year old! Stay strong friend! You are almost at the finish line!
    1607 days ago
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    Hang in there friend~Wednesday is coming! The count down has begin! 6-7 more days! Hold on! Force on the end is near!
    1607 days ago
    Glad you were able to do a posting, I wondered how you were. You must be so proud of your son & his book! I laughed when I read that you didn't know how he could be your age. I feel that way about my half siblings, I am 16 years older than the oldest of them, but it was some kind of strange when the eldest turned 40!
    Hang in there.You can do this, and you are almost done. Kind of like a long road trip, the last 50 miles feels the longest. You have less than a week to go! Don't worry about the weigh you are gaining now, your body is going through so much right now it would be a real miracle to be losing weight. That will happen soon enough. For now, keep your eyes on the prize: finishing your therapy, healing and resting. Sooner than you think you'll be feeling strong enough to be sweating more and being the Esther Williams of your local swimming pool again. We are all rooting for you!
    1607 days ago
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    It's so good to hear from you! So glad you are keeping yourself busy. Glad you checked in with all of us!
    1607 days ago
    It's good to hear from you.
    1607 days ago
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    Hang in there!!
    1607 days ago
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