"Shooting Yourself In The Foot ???"

When I was growing up, I used to hear a lot of old sayings. One of those sayings was "Don't shoot yourself in the foot."

I looked online and found a couple of explanations of the meaning of that saying:
'Don't take an action that will result in harm to yourself that you did not intend.'
'Shooting ones Self in the foot' means that you have brought it upon yourself. No one else 'shot' you in the foot, it was you who did it.'

Lately I have been "Shooting Myself In The Foot." Not really. But in the form of self sabotage. I had gained about 10 pounds recently, but I had started losing it. I was excited to know that I could actually do this. I had actually taken off 8 of the recent gain.
Next thing I know, I am craving (I mean really craving) Pecan Pie.

I had to go to the store for Milk and a few other things, so there I am right by the Pecan Pies. Yep, I bought 2 of them. After having a piece after dinner, I put both pies in the freezer. (I still have half a pie in the freezer).{Yes, I have eaten a pie and a half in a week.}

I bought other junk that day, which I promptly ate a bunch of. The next day, I spent most of that day running to the bathroom. (As all of you probably know, junk food is NOT good for the body.)

There I was "shooting myself in the foot" while I was mentally telling myself this binge would not affect me. I have never been good at lying, not even to myself.

I am very good at starting to lose weight. My beginnings are just super. My meals are planned and prepared. This morning, I even made Sugar Free Jello and I took a tub of Sugar Free Cool Whip out of the freezer. Lunch will be left over baked chicken and veggies.

Exercise: Most of the time I don't feel good and I am in pain. The pain I tolerate, the not feeling good not so easy.

Yesterday, I actually walked to my mail box with out using my crutches or my cane. Very scary. I am off balance and unsteady. Doctor said my knee will probably never get any better than it is now. I don't want to believe that, and I don't want to give up. I just have to figure out how to accept the fact that I am O.K. and I don't have to "Shoot Myself In The Foot.