Thursday, March 17, 2016
So I read my one and only blog entry from this site that was however long ago and realised that even though I'm a terrible quitter with the difficult stuff and an habitual creature with the "fun" stuff, I actually have made a lot of lifestyle changes already.
I quit smoking about 2 years ago, which was a lot less difficult than I thought it would be. I firmly believe with pretty much anything that you will only be able to do it if you WANT to. Not need to, but want to, there's definitely a difference and I believe that difference is key.
I have also since quit drinking alcohol (I allow myself the occasional drink, but I am no longer a binge drinker or even a social drinker), all forms of caffeine (that I'm aware of) and soft drink in general. The latter two were helped along by health recommendations due to an illness that I am struggling with, unrelated to weight or fitness.
I joined a gym a month ago and have been going almost every day. I feel like I'm well on my way to a healthier me.
The main reason I returned here is to utilise the calorie counter. With my illness and the medications I am on, I am putting on a lot of weight. I am also getting married in October and want to feel happy and comfortable and beautiful. I'd love to be able to be comfortable in my own skin no matter what the size, but I'm not at that stage of self love yet.
I want to be able to look back on my wedding photos and like what I see. I also do not want to be going to the gym and yet still putting weight ON. The struggle I was having when my only problem was that I was lazy, seems like an absolute pittance now, but I am confident that I will get there.
My fiance recently told me I am really strong. A couple of years ago I wouldn't have believed him, but I'm starting to see the truth.