Sunday, March 27, 2016
No story is great, or really even complete without conflict. Something has to challenge our hero, someone has to stand in the way, even if its an aspect of the hero's own personality. The first couple weeks of couch 2 5k, I walked and I jogged, and I felt great. I remembered all the awesome reasons working out feels so good. YAY endorphin rush. But this week I started working 12 hour shifts. Now I drag myself home from a long day, play with my dog for 5 minutes, and crawl into bed barely 8 hours away from waking up to do it all over again. I have never been a morning person. I like long slow starts to my day, which is why I love working 8 hour shifts on afternoon or midnight schedule, where I can get up at my leisure, still have time to eat breakfast and work out, before finally meandering off to work. So today my alarm went off promptly at 1530 (3:30 pm) and I was on the clock. Drank my protein shake for breakfast (can't work out on an empty tank personally), fed the dog, and put on my running shoes. I just didn't want to do it, the whole time I was gearing up putting on my workout gear I was thinking "man I could just do this tomorrow". But if I put it off tomorrow we all know that tomorrow never comes. During my workout I was in a negative cycle, this sucks, i hate this blah blah blah. I kept thinking maybe I won't finish this run, maybe I will walk the next cycle. But I pushed myself thru it and I finished it. Now unless you actually hurt yourself pretty bad, no one ever says after the workout is over "that was stupid, that was awful why did I do that", because even if you don't enjoy the activity you do, completing a workout still makes your body feel good and produce happy chemicals.
This is where changing my life is getting difficult, making myself do the things I don't feel like doing. Obviously I have never been good at forcing myself to do things, otherwise I wouldn't be here, overweight and looking to change my life. But this is the real issue I am work on this time. I will finish couch 2 5k, and then I can evaluate wether or not running is my cardio of choice. I am going to sign up for a 5k, and finish this program, and try to run all of the actual 5k. I love the way finishing a workout feels, and melting off pounds with hard work. But man that wall is big, and tough to get past sometimes.