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Conflict

Sunday, March 27, 2016

No story is great, or really even complete without conflict. Something has to challenge our hero, someone has to stand in the way, even if its an aspect of the hero's own personality. The first couple weeks of couch 2 5k, I walked and I jogged, and I felt great. I remembered all the awesome reasons working out feels so good. YAY endorphin rush. But this week I started working 12 hour shifts. Now I drag myself home from a long day, play with my dog for 5 minutes, and crawl into bed barely 8 hours away from waking up to do it all over again. I have never been a morning person. I like long slow starts to my day, which is why I love working 8 hour shifts on afternoon or midnight schedule, where I can get up at my leisure, still have time to eat breakfast and work out, before finally meandering off to work. So today my alarm went off promptly at 1530 (3:30 pm) and I was on the clock. Drank my protein shake for breakfast (can't work out on an empty tank personally), fed the dog, and put on my running shoes. I just didn't want to do it, the whole time I was gearing up putting on my workout gear I was thinking "man I could just do this tomorrow". But if I put it off tomorrow we all know that tomorrow never comes. During my workout I was in a negative cycle, this sucks, i hate this blah blah blah. I kept thinking maybe I won't finish this run, maybe I will walk the next cycle. But I pushed myself thru it and I finished it. Now unless you actually hurt yourself pretty bad, no one ever says after the workout is over "that was stupid, that was awful why did I do that", because even if you don't enjoy the activity you do, completing a workout still makes your body feel good and produce happy chemicals.
This is where changing my life is getting difficult, making myself do the things I don't feel like doing. Obviously I have never been good at forcing myself to do things, otherwise I wouldn't be here, overweight and looking to change my life. But this is the real issue I am work on this time. I will finish couch 2 5k, and then I can evaluate wether or not running is my cardio of choice. I am going to sign up for a 5k, and finish this program, and try to run all of the actual 5k. I love the way finishing a workout feels, and melting off pounds with hard work. But man that wall is big, and tough to get past sometimes.
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  • LDYSABELLA
    I have so much admiration for you right now. Way to go.
    1799 days ago
  • MSEMBERSTORM
    You can do this!
    1804 days ago
  • FIREFLY4407
    Are these your new hours from now on, or do they cycle (so you expect to be on a different shift some time in the future). If it's for a specific period of time this might help you plan and manage within that time frame. Are you doing 12s less days a week, in which case maybe shift the workouts to off days? Since I've completed Couch to 5K and have been running races, I only run 3-4 days a week (and strength train the other days). Maybe you could double up runs and ST on off days, allowing for better rest on work days? I know you can finish the program now that you set your mind to it.
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    1804 days ago
  • LHACHRIL
    Man do I know what you mean. It's a struggle with myself every day before I workout. I have such "good" reasons not to. But when I do I am so glad I did and feel encouraged. I wonder if it will ever be easier to make the decision to exercise each day
    1804 days ago
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