Finally - spring!
Monday, April 18, 2016
Trying not to get too excited yet, but I finally feel like things are turning around for me.
I mentioned in my last blog post that I set up a new therapist -- I've seen her twice so far, and she seems like a pretty good match from those two sessions. We're basically laying the groundwork right now.
I saw my doctor and told her about my fatigue and lack of motivation, and she humored me and ran a lot of bloodwork (TSH, Free T4, CBC, and Metabolic Panel). She clearly thought that the issue was that I was depressed. When I told her I didn't FEEL depressed, she said "Well how about we just go over these questions about depression?" I knew that the results would say I was depressed, because I'd done an online screening, and sure enough, she told me that the quiz results reflected "mild to moderate depression." But I'm not sad. In fact, I have few emotions at all, one might say I'm Captain Logic. My brain is like inside out, but the only creature really up there is Disgust. It's like my moods are "enh" or "ugh," but never really sad, not particularly angry, never really happy.
My bloodwork came back, and I'm super healthy. My TSH and T4 were so normal, by even the narrowest of standards that I've read online written by thyroid specialists, that it seems highly unlikely that that's the problem. . despite symptoms lining up. The only thing that's left is some sort of lady hormonal imbalance. Inspired by an old blog post here about changing my birth control and getting great results, I'm trying that. It's frustrating to do work with lady hormones because there is very little research done on steroid hormones in premenopausal women. But I think that's a major culprit. So far, things seem good -- I feel less fatigued today than I have in a while. Perhaps it's psychosomatic, but who cares?
Doc suggested Wellbutrin, which I'm strongly considering if the BC change doesn't pan out. I know other people who've had good results with it, so it's probably worth a shot.
I also decided today that I need to truly get back to focusing on losing weight. I was up five pounds at the gym, and I know it's because of Easter candy! And Valentine's Candy.. whatever, it's not good. I tried to put together an eating plan for the week, focusing on one of my favorite lentil soups, and fresh fruit and veggies. Even if I don't really have motivation, I need to start forcing myself. I'm mainly working on cutting back on sugar.. it's pretty well known that sugar crashes could cause fatigue, and I'm sure that's at least part of the problem!