Monday, May 02, 2016
So on the 30th I was 200.1 just .2 away from Onederland. So this week it is my goal to get there. I am eating clean this week and exercising. Of course nature may not be on my side but I will give it my all to get down the .2 and finally be in the One hundreds again for the first time in several years. I think it has been at least 4 years since I was under 200 pounds.
At first it was the stress of my husband retiring from the military and going back to college so I gained weight stress eating. Worrying about how we where going to pay the bills while he went to college.
However now I see that while I was stressing my daughter (now 11) was watching and she has now patterned her habits after myself and my husband. Ever since she was 7 she has had issues with binge eating. I have taken her to the doctor and they sent her to the military doctors at the age of 7 where they proceeded to treat her like a pen cushion and did no counseling for her food addiction. It did more harm than good. Last week she told me she wanted to pack her lunch. So I was happy! So she got up every day and packed her lunch. I was so surprised when I went to put money in my son's lunch account only to discover that my daughter was also eating a lunch at school in addition to her packed lunch along with a breakfast at school. We also discovered she was back to hoarding food in her room again, because we found empty bags of chips and wrappers under her bed. UGHHH! I just called the doctor for a referral. I don't know what to do. She is now 11 and 150 pound. She has gained 27 pounds in 7 months. I have tried talking to her numerous times but she will not discuss anything. Not sure what is the cause of it but she has been doing this since the first grade. This is not the first time she has done the two lunch thing either. This is like the third time I have caught her. But when you look for help there is not a lot of help for children with food disorder out there. Adults yes but not children. I have told her I love her not matter her weight. I have talked to her about how it may affect her health and health problems that run in the family as a result of weight issues. I have even said that children as you get older get mean and I just don't want you to ever have to worry about kids being mean. But nothing seems to get through to her. I am so lost on how to help her. So I guess I am going to have to take her to a professional who maybe can figure out why she is doing it and help her stop. She is going to be so mad but I don't know what else to do.
I thought for the past year if she saw me working out and eating right she would want to do the same as she will be going to middle school next year, but sadly nothing has worked. Hopefully things will get better soon.