Eyes Wide Open!
Monday, May 16, 2016
On Saturday, May 14th, our oldest child and only daughter got married. She was a beautiful bride and it was a lovely wedding. Like any proud mother, I'll admit that I shed a few tears. After all, my baby was officially a woman now. But, if I'm truly honest, I also shed a few tears for another reason. I looked...truly looked in the mirror and was appalled at what I saw! When did I gain so much weight??!!
Because I have let my weight get out of control, I had a difficult time finding a dress to wear to my daughters wedding. One showed "too much arm fat"! In another, I looked like I was "about 15 months pregnant and counting!" I had an epiphany! I hit the wall, the bottom or whatever boundary is designed to stop my continued descent into poor health and morbid obesity. I had to admit to myself that I am no longer "fluffy", "pleasantly plump" or even "slightly chunky"! I am....gasp.... pushing 250 pounds and am fast developing health conditions often related to morbid obesity!
This is no longer about not being cute or being able to find the right dress to fit my physique. It's about being at the best weight for me and about being healthy. My eyes are wide open now and I am publicly admitting that this is not cute and this is not healthy! It doesn't even matter how I got to this point. What matters is what I am going to do to get better...to reach the right weight for me and to be healthy again!
Today, I promise myself to make a true and lasting change in my lifestyle habits. I pledge to take better care of the body that God has gifted me with..and treat it with the respect it deserves. SparkPeople has the tools to help me as I embark on this journey. Spark Coach takes it up another notch. I will make the necessary lifestyle changes and will eat healthy food and exercise on a daily basis. I will use the tools available to me and will be consistent with tracking my food and exercise. Change starts today!
Our Wedding Day 30 years ago and At Our Daughter's Wedding on May 14, 2016