Day 155 of my VLCD Journey and weigh in #22
Friday, June 03, 2016
Twenty two weeks. That is just crazy. I started my new life 22 weeks ago and I can not believe how far I have come. I know that I have a long weigh to go, but I am have come a long way too.
Been dealing with emotional stuff this week. I am having a hard time seeing the changes. I know how my clothes feel and I can see the changes in my body. I see what I need to lose still instead of focusing on what I have lost. I know that is a me thing that I have to deal with, but I feel that since I have had body and self esteem issues most of my life that it isn't going to change now. Besides working on my body I need to work on my mind to see myself better. People who work in the same building as me who I see but don't know are telling me how great I look and I don't know what to say. It feels awkward for me to hear people compliment me on my weight loss. I might sound like a self absorbed person right now and please know that is not my intention, but I am experiencing something I never have before and it makes me uncomfortable. So associates have started giving me nicknames like skinny minny and slim jim. It is weird to hear. I need to focus on the positive I know that. I know that what I have lost is amazing and it isn't easy. But coming to terms with my new appearance is proving to be more difficult then I could have imagined. However I will not let it deter me because I do have a ways to go, but I am going to start acknowledging what I have done and how far I have come so far.
Weigh in day!!! I lost 4 pounds this week for a total of 94 pounds lost. That is my 12 year old niece that I have lost!!! Pretty amazing I would say!
I am excited for my first full weekend off since March! Nothing really planned besides hanging with family and friends and enjoying the time off!
Well have a great Friday everyone!