Something Old, Something New
Friday, June 24, 2016
Along time ago, sort of in the olden years for me, I was a company ballet dancer, surfer, swimmer, waitress, jogger, fast food server, door-to-door campaign petitioner, as well as several other things. Not long ago I went back for my Bachelors and then my Masters in hopes of finding more meaningful work, and work that did not require me even standing on my feet for more than a few minutes at a time. I had held down desk jobs for 20 years; when one day I took a fall on the way into work that pretty much crippled me so that I was in a wheel chair, walker, crutches, and finally given a cane and told there was not much more that could be done for me other than possible surgery and large, life-long doses of prednisone and naproxen sodium. After graduating recently I had pretty much acquired a defeatist attitude at 320 pounds. I stayed at home and didn't even try for more than a couple of jobs in the fear that I would just be sent away. Now I have opportunities to engage in counseling internships of which I am still very interested in; but have decided instead to aspire a different route for awhile to see if I can make it work first. Since I started back in Sparks about a couple of months and a half ago I have lost 56 pounds. I have exercised and worked on strengthening my broken knees, ankle, leg, and even the areas of my other leg with scar tissue centered around a 4 1/2 inch and a 2 inch hematoma based blood clot; both of which have stunted my ability to walk and caused an enormous amount of painful neuropathy. I put the cane away about half way through my return to Sparks and can now walk up and down the stairs; although down does still pose a little pain and difficulty due to the arthritis in my knees and scar tissue blocking certain arteries in my leg. But I don't care, I just make it happen anyway that I can. Since the change in my diet to practically no processed foods, sugar or stimulant additives, or white bleached flour or rice food products at all, I have all but experienced just about less than 1% of the neuropathic pain I was going through before; said by the doctors to have been affecting my somatosensory nervous system. I signed up to see if I could get hired at a job a week ago that would require me going up and down step ladders all day long and walking around stores inventorying merchandise; while telling my prospective employer about my recent plight and endeavors. I was able to walk into my interview free of a cane that also required me walking up to the second floor of the building; which I did unbeknownst to me along side the boss I would be hired by and working for. Amazingly I was able to do so without losing my breath and without a noticeable limp. I was hired because of all the strengthening exercises, weight loss, and good foods that I have decided to base my life on; and because of the support and loving relationships I have formed within our Sparks teams. I know that I have another hundred or more pounds to lose and I am all about continuing until I have; and making this health transition stay with me the rest of my life. One day I plan to write to all of you about a 5K that I can walk in, and maybe even possibly run in. I never saw this happening in less than three months. My doctors think I'm on steroids or something. They said I did something that would have been said to be impossible. But they also said the same thing when I radically changed my diet to turn a positive Lupus diagnosis of ANA to one that was negative 18 months later. I don't think the word impossible fits in my vocabulary anymore. A couple of weeks ago my son's friends from the gym saw me walking and exercising without any sort of aid and began dancing around me, chanting "Zelda's beat immobility, Zelda's beat immobility". My son looked so proud and I felt so good for him at that moment. We are worth something to ourselves and to someone else somewhere as well. We owe this to ourselves and to those we love to make the best of ourselves. If I could accomplish this at just the beginning of my journey here with Sparks at the onset of 60 years old, then so can any of you. Something old in my life is returning inside of myself, so that something new is beginning to happen for me and those around me. All I can say is thank you, all of you; and "Go Sparks!"