Friday, July 01, 2016
I decided a week or so ago that I was only going to weigh in on the 1st and 15th. Well today is the first. I gained 1 lb since the last time I weighed like a week ago.
Has my eating been perfect? No. Have I been getting some exercise every day, yes. Most of the days I've tracked I've stayed in my range or gone just over.
Although my mind is screaming at me to hate myself and wallow in disappointment, I won't. I've been tracking again only just over a week. I'm not going to lose much when I'm still transitioning and relearning how to eat healthily.
I am going to choose to focus only on the positive changes I HAVE succeeded with.
Eaten more fruits and way less sugar treats.
Stopped a binge in its tracks on more than one occasion.
Been writing and tracking nearly every day.
Not been grazing endlessly during the day and sticking to meals and snack times only.
Exercising for 10 or more minutes a day.
Talking about my feelings here on spark.
Getting more organized around the house and being proactive about depression symptoms.
Decided to find a counselor and commit myself to therapy.
Read a very helpful book about failing marriages and recognized that the there are some things seriously wrong in my own that I can affect by seeking help for myself.
I also have to say, I am so glad for the comments I receive on my blogs and the people who have reached out and shared their similar struggles with me. You give me hope. You have stolen my loneliness. You have given me community.
I am thankful for Jesus, and His love for me, the answered prayers I've seen the past week. For His patience and respect of my free will.
I am thankful to the friends I have face to face, to the friends who will listen without condemnation, who really hear what I'm saying and support me wherever I choose to go. I'm thankful for the family I have who listen and recognize the disfunction within it and work on themselves and encourage me to overcome that disfunction and heal.
There can be so much going wrong it is overwhelming sometimes. But when I search for the things I need to show gratitude for I can easily see how really blessed I am. I'm very grateful I'm seeing that misery is a choice I can move away from.