Day 188 of my VLCD journey!
Wednesday, July 06, 2016
July is here I can't believe it!!!! I spent a long weekend at the cabin with family and I did really well! I did allow myself to eat a brat and some jello at the family cookout on the 4th but I didn't have a bun, and I stayed away from the potato salad (my fave) as well as the cookies! I will take this as a NSV because that was hard to do!!! I did have a smore on the fire one night as a special treat. And to be honest, it didn't even taste good!!
I stayed active while on my mini vacation as well. I walked every morning. I went by myself the first day and walked 2.2 miles, the next morning my niece joined me and the last morning my sister went with and we walked 3.1 miles. It was great! We got to see some deer, and bald eagles on our walks! I also tried something that I have always wanted to do, I went kayaking. I was always scared to because I was to fat I would sink the boat. But I got in it and paddled from our dock to the island and back. the island is probably a 1/4 of a mile from our dock! I felt awesome for pushing outside of my comfort zone.
I had a check up with my doctor last week. I had a break down in the doctors office. I talked about my mental struggles. I was referred to a therapist that specializes in eating disorders. I am waiting for insurance to approve it.
Losing weight is so much more then eating right and going to the gym which i feel I have done really well with. I am really struggling with the mental side of it. I see how far I have to go not how far I come, and I am now starting to feel like I am never going to get there. I really feel like it will kick start me again in the right direction as I have plateaued.
I am hoping to lose those 2 pounds by my birthday next Saturday. My goal was to lose 100 pounds by my birthday!!
Really feeling burnt out at work and I am thinking of finding something different to do. I have been with this company for 11 years next month. I think it is time for a change. I don't know what that change will be but I am ready. I love working with people so I need to find something doing that but I am going to start looking and see what I find!
Well I think that is all for today! I am going to work on blogging more as it really helps. I hope you are all well!