I am only responsible for me or am I?
Monday, August 08, 2016
My whole adult life I have had to watch my weight. I have had to watch each morsel that i choose to eat. Sometimes I care and I am maticulous about what I eat. other times I am discouraged and I eat whatever I want and I have let my weight soar. Who am I hurting by this? only myself? who is watching? who cares?
It would seem that we are only responsible for ourselves. I don't think that is true though. People are watching all the time. They see when you are doing good. You might motivate someone and not even know it by your good actions. At my house my day care kids are constantly watching what I do eat and what i do not eat. They ask why. So even as I am feeding the according to the food program standards, they want to know what I am eating.
My daughter is having a bout of depression and has put on a lot of weight. She is so sad and miserable. She is watching me and is happy for me and sad for her self. I am not responsible for her weight gain or her bad feelings, but i know that seeing me she is torn from being jealous of my success and being happy for me.
I can not make it anyone's "time" to want to lose weight. I wish I had a magic wand for myself. All I can do it keep working on me everyday and hope that at the end of the day I made more good choices than bad and that I was "kind" to myself. I hope that I am a good example.
I will be here to support her when my daughter is ready, until then I guess that I will lead by example. I will be on standby to support her. I guess we never fully understand who we motivate at the same time.