Sunday, August 21, 2016
i am probably one of the friendliest people that you will ever meet. i strike up conversations with anyone anywhere. When I am the person that is initiating the conversation I am straight up chatty.
I suffer social anxiety at times which i find to be getting worse as i get older. I do not like to meet new couples. If my husband of 26 years tells me that we are going to a cook out at someones house that I do not know...... Ok this is the second time he has done this to me this year,....... I get so nervous. Why? I know some of it has to do with my size. I am embarrassed about my weight. I am getting old. I am going gray. Ok so I have been going gray since I was 4 and have been coloring my hair since 5th grade but I am just letting it go gray now.
Jeanne Get over yourself!!!!!!!
Ok so yesterday I decided to go get a new used outfit. I went to the consignment store with my daughter. I hate to spend big money on clothes that I am determined not to fit in for long. I left my house wearing a nice top and a pair of cargo shorts. I pick up my daughter and we go out and i find nothing. I decide what i am wearing is good enough to wear at the cook out. I will fix my hair and then go. my hair. My roots have grown out 3/4 of an inch. I look like a skunk.
I go to walmart and i look for temp root cover up. The hosue that we are goign to today is a ritzy couple in town and why oh why did he say yes. She is hair dresser. gorgeous house. but they are uppity but really down to earth. What does that mean!!!!????????
My daughter and I pull up a youtube video on this root hair product. i decide for 7 dollars I will try it.
ok. my look is almost complete I am bringing nacho boats. If you low carb and miss nachos you must make nacho boats. They are small red and orange peppers that are cut length wise and gutted out. I cook them in oven for 10 minutes at 350. i fill them with seasoned ground hamburg. i use goya seasoning mix but you could use taco seasoning. Bake them for another 10 mintues with shredded cheddar on top and they are so good.
Ok i know there will be one thing at this cookout I can eat. I also bring a bottle of wine. a 32 ounce water jug and several disposable water bottles to drink too.
I get ready. my husband gets ready and dresses like he would. A PETA tshirt (people eating tasty animals) and cargo shorts with sandals. we meet up with his partner and his wife. She is wearing a dress. I am anticipating that she too is nervous, she never wears dresses. Her husband has a dress shirt on with his shorts... WE meet the hostess. Put together but very nice. WE meet the husband. cut off shorts and work boots with a grubby t shirt. he never took a shower. He put his shorts on one leg at a time. Why did i get so worked up?
Anxiety is IRRATIONAL
i drank 56 ounces of water. one glass of wine. I had all low carb for dinner. It was so nice.
good company, good food and a nice night. And a whole lot of worrying for nothing.