Wednesday, September 14, 2016
Here is a photo of my perfect adorable smart and creative little Abby. She's eating her favorite food, broccoli. Lol
I took this after I had prepped all my lunches for the week. In all my years trying to eat healthy and deal with my eating issues, disordered eating, emotional eating, binge eating, whatever you want to call it, I've learned that to be successful in this, I have to plan ahead. Planning ahead might seem like a big hassle or even a waste of time (I know for years I felt this way), but it actually simplifies my life in a huge way. I don't have to figure out what I am going to eat by looking through all my cupboards while I'm hungry. It helps curb the feeling that I need to stop at fast food and get something for myself. Because I've essentially made a homemade meal faster, easier, and cheaper than McDonald's. And admit it, fast food is never as satisfying as we think it will be. I always want more when it's gone.
Years ago, I had lost a huge amount of weight and had kept it off for a few years, and I kept it off because I avoided eating fast food, and I did that by planning ahead and cooking at home. A year and a half ago, I fell into a very deep depression, one of the worst I've ever experienced, and I quit caring. I quit planning, I ate what I felt like eating when I felt like eating it. It wasn't something that happened overnight either. It was a gradual change. I started doing things thinking "just this once" and that one time became two times, three times, then eventually became a habit again. It got to the point where I didn't hardly feel bad about it and was just normal.
Now that I'm climbing back out of my sad hole, I'm rediscovering my old good habits. I'm planning ahead again, I'm making daily short goals, and finally accomplishing them. I'm not looking at the 75 lbs I gained during this depression as something impossible anymore.
Safety First. To stay safe from my binge eating and compulsions, I gotta make that part of my life easy. Planning ahead makes it easy. I already know what I'm eating tomorrow, do you?