Changing my Thinking
Monday, October 03, 2016
I know getting healthy is important. I know how important it is to get my weight down. I know how much better it makes me feel. But I still find myself resentful of exercise (which I dislike) and eating healthy (I love junk food). I love healthy food also but they tend to be more time consuming to cook (a lot of veggie peeling/ chopping. etc.) and I have a very picky husband and son who won't eat a lot of the healthier things I want to cook.
I am trying to make small changes as I find myself overwhelmed by the big picture. I started a "Positive Affirmations" journal about 5 weeks ago. It is a journal in which I write all the positives from the day. I won't allow myself to write any negatives as that is what I tend to focus on. Some days, the only positives I can come up with are "Everyone is home safe" and "Yummy dinner" but hey, those are important to acknowledge, also.
I tend to be a perfectionist, very very hard on myself. I also tend to think in terms of "all or nothing". I am trying to change my thinking, accept small changes and learn to love myself. Unfortunately, after a childhood of constant criticism and complaining about everything I do wrong, I am still my own worst critic. I show others compassion but never myself. I encourage others but not myself.
I am learning. I am certainly, a work in progress. I will continue to learn and grow as I travel this road to a healthier me.