Tuesday, October 18, 2016
Last week I took a transfer entrance exam of a college in my town, Sendai. I passed the exam and was accepted by the college. I am returning to college to do the remaining 2 years to get a bachelors degree from the next spring. I am also waiting for a reply from the publisher I sent my draft to last month. If my draft will be accepted by the publisher to be made public, I will be an author of my long-time dream.
Having that said, a thing has been kept on my mind. What about the weight loss goal that I have dreamed of? Have not I worked out for a past year? Yes, I have. And I have lost 7 lbs in the first 4 months, and gained 12 lbs back after that. I have worked out quite hard and ate less for the first 4 months and I am still doing the routine of walking 30 minutes 4 times a week plus 120 minutes one or two times a week, but I am gaining. Maybe the portion of my food is too large, because I am no longer tracking foods. But I am not sure if I will be able to stick with smaller portions even if I start over the challenge from now.
Maybe it is about hormone. I am 48, and I am expecting my menopause within a few years. I am guessing that the level of female hormone that accelerates weight loss has decreased and coming to shut down. I am coming to close.
But that does not determine my weight loss or weight gain itself, if I constantly and consistently work out and eat less. Many people over 50 or 60 succeed in weight loss in their age, those are the ones who keep doing constantly and continuously. Just do not give up.
I am becoming successful in my career, and now it is menopause. A door opens and the other shuts in my back. Life is very strange; I did not expect it to be like this up until now. These past several years, I strived so hard to bring my career fruitful, even though I was so absorbed into what I was doing that I did not think about my biological clock that was tickling. A few years back I bought an audio book by Jane Fonda, titled Prime Time, in which she introduced an idea of The Third Act of her life, the life after all her youth was gone but she was fully ripen. I realized now that I was heading toward the path. You can work so hard to make your life fruitful but eventually you age. You cannot avoid this. I am now attaining the success, but the other area of my life is coming to die. It is so natural to hear and say, but when it comes to you, you awe to the life cycle that God created equally to every human beings.