So, I have gained back every pound I lost. I have been lazy with my habits, and have used too many excuses to not be active. I have convinced myself that once I lost the weight, it will magically stay off without any effort on my part. Wow. What was I thinking?
This is not a "new year resolution"- this is a reality check and an "I have had it". I hate feeling dumpy, and lethargic. I hate feeling like getting off the couch is my only exercise for the day. I am tired of being tired.
So, what should I do? This is my list of ultimate things to change, although I plan to take them 1 or 2 at a time. I need to set myself up for success.
1.Drink more water, even if I am in the bathroom every hour. (at least I will get some extra steps in with extra trips to the bathroom!)
2. Eat slower. After a few bites, put down the fork, drink some water, contemplate my blessings, and repeat.
3. Start meals with a smaller portion and asking myself if I am really hungry for 2nds. And really listen to my answer! If I choose 2nds, have a smaller portion than the 1st time.
4. Snacking only if I am actually, truly, really, fer sure hungry. And make smart choices for snacks.
5. Exercise as often as possible without beating myself up for missing-life happens and it is not always possible for me to hit the gym and work, and get my child to Volleyball, and take care of my family...but there is no reason I can't do leg lifts, squats, wall pushups etc while the microwave is going....
6. Weigh myself once a month, that's it, that's all, nada, no way. I am not going to live by that stupid, mean scale.
7.Go back to tracking food and exercise-again, I am not going to beat myself up if I am not able..sometimes I just don't know the fat and calorie count of the meatloaf I made, but if I used lean meat, egg whites, and eat a proper portion with veggies, I am ok.
8.Increase my veggies.. decrease sugar and bread. Not get rid of those things completely, just paying attention to how much I am choosing to eat.
9.Pay attention to the things that are working, and the things that hold me back? Am I dumping on myself too much? Is what I eating for breakfast the right thing? Am I at least making an effort to exercise or am I finding excuses? Keeping an eye on those things and owning up to them and making efforts to correct are my best bet.
10.Make my lunches, and make them appealing. Its not that hard to throw lettuce in a bowl and taking it to work, but will I eat it or call Jimmy Johns? (I love Jimmy Johns, and if I do order, I am going to start ordering the Breadless sandwhich...-smart choices!)
11. Make every effort to ask myself these questions when I am ready to eat- Am I snacking because I'm bored/angry/frustrated? (If yes-find alternatives) Will food taste better if I stuff myself? Will the food I am about to eat help me with energy or feeling good about myself?
Time for changes. Time to be an example to my daughter. Time to feel like I am worth the time and energy. Its time.