Day 792 - Depression Hurts
Monday, January 30, 2017
Let me preface this post by saying that I am not a doctor or clinical psychologist. But I've read enough articles that I think I can recognize some of the symptoms of depression. I may not be able to diagnose the disease, but I can point out the signs and encourage someone to seek appropriate medical attention.
My mother suffers from severe depression. It was "full front and center" this weekend when we went to visit my parents at their apartment. Mom was miserable, constantly apologizing for everything from the quality of the food to the color of the carpet. Even watching a movie caused her supreme embarrassment (there were nude scenes in the film we watched, which has happened before, but this time her reaction was severe).
As we were leaving, she started to cry. She usually doesn't tear up when we are going back home, at least not in front of us, and this time it wasn't about us leaving. Instead, she was fretting because the weekend had been "such a disaster." I reassured her that the weekend was fine. We had a nice dinner out at one of their favorite restaurants. We watched a movie together. We had enjoyable conversation. There was nothing to be sad about.
The more we talked, the sadder she became. There was nothing I could say to console her. It broke my heart, but it also made me angry. She's afraid of doctors, so she doesn't discuss her emotional wellbeing with them. She doesn't like taking anti-depressant medications, because she had a bad reaction to one of them. My dad is no help because he is incapable of understanding depression, since he's always happy.
I was reminded of a TV commercial that says the depression hurts everyone, not just the person suffering from the disease. I know that it's an illness, and this article verifies that the illness is not just mental.
If you recognize yourself in any of these symptoms, I encourage you to get checked out by a medical or mental health professional. Your life, and the lives of your family, may be dependent on it.