Friday, February 03, 2017
I was just reading a blog post 2BDynamic...What I got out of it was that we need to be aware of how we think and how we speak to ourselves because our own thoughts can be very discouraging on this journey. I started to comment on the post and then realized that my comment was getting so long, that it could be a blog post in itself.
So, here I am...
I started going to the gym and making some changes to my eating (key word here is "some"--baby steps, people...baby steps!) and I remember looking in the mirror one day this week and thinking about how much I hate mirrors! I'm feeling pretty good...I know the weight is coming off because my clothes are fitting better...but then that stupid reflection...the one that doesn't match the one in my head is staring back at me. But, I didn't get down in the dumps...I just reminded myself that a few weeks of doing better is good and that it will get better as I keep on keeping on.
I have to keep reminding myself that, no matter how cliché it sounds, I didn't put on all of this excess weight overnight and it won't come off over night. And that a safe and sustainable weight loss is about 1 to 2 lbs/week.
Yeah...I knew that.
But sometimes, it can be hard to fight the distracting and discouraging thoughts. Like when I attended a fitness class earlier this week. I felt pretty good going in. I was doing something good for myself...then all the younger, fitter girls started to come in and I suddenly felt like I was in the wrong place. The trainer was excellent. She started everybody off doing the modified/lower impact version of a move, then she would demonstrate the more advanced version of the move. She encouraged us to work at our own levels and our own pace. Which was fine at first...but it's hard not to be discouraged when the only one doing the modified/low impact move is me.
It's going to be slow going...and I will likely feel it before I start to see it, but it's going to happen. I am going to get down to a weight that is healthier for me. I'll be stronger. I'm going to be comfortable and confident in my own skin. I won't get winded walking up 2 flights of stairs.
I may never fall in love with my mirror (or my evil scale for that matter), but I've already decided that I love me enough to not give up on me.
I hope you feel the same way about you.