New year new Blog
Friday, February 24, 2017
It has been a really long time since I have blogged. I have been feeling really down and feeling I didn't have a lot to say. I have had a lot of changes over the past 5 months and I didn't adjust well with the changes.
I left my job of 10 years in September to go to something completely different. It was better hours, but out of my comfort zone. I met some really awesome people but the job wasn't a good fit. I was also in a car accident the 2nd week of my new job and ended up with pretty bad concussion that effected me for a good two weeks. Missing my work and accomplishments I had at my previous job, I reached out to the owner to see if a position was open for me to return to. Luckily my position had not been filled, and I was able to go back to my job. I am really happy about doing this too. When I left, I thought I needed to leave because I wasn't a good fit for this job. I thought I needed to do something different. Well I did and I learned that I am to be doing what I have been doing for the past 10 years. Not only do I enjoy my work but I am really good at my job. Every job has its ups and downs, and good days and bad days. I just need to sit back and enjoy the ride.
With the job change came with an insurance change. Since my weight loss program was with my insurance I was no longer able to work with my doctor on my VLCD. He helped me transition to real food and gave me tips on how to succeed until I was able to get back on the program. I did great at the beginning. But I was going from a job when I could take the breaks and lunch when I wanted to and was able to set my schedule to punching a clock and allowed only so much time to be away from desk. Including bathroom breaks, and when you drink 100 ounces of water a day...you can imagine my break time was eaten up in the bathroom so to speak. I became unhappy with the change and my depression came on full on. You add the holidays in the mix and I was an emotional mess, which led to emotional eating. Which led to weight gain. As the pounds came back the deeper my depression came on. I stopped working out and i didn't care what I put in my mouth food wise. My water intake went way down. I was lucky if I would drink 64 ounces a day. I slowly went into my bad habits. I knew I was spiraling as the scale was getting a larger number on it. I knew I had to make a change and that is when I reached out to my old boss. I am proud of myself for having the knowledge to make a change as well as the strength to do what is best for me.
So I am now back at my old job and I am very happy. I am getting a grasp on my depression again and I am starting back on my VLCD today. I know this will be a challenge as I am going to want the real food but I can't have it right now. I still have my food addictions and they are going to kill me if I don't get a grasp on them. I am going to make the most of this second chance and I now know that I am in control! I am going to be successful. I have about 100 pounds to lose to reach my weight range goal. I know I can do it. My spark family is an amazing support and I can't thank you enough !
Wow I guess I had a lot to say today! I am sorry it was so long but I needed to get this out to help me on my new journey!
One step at a time, one day at a time!