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Friday, February 24, 2017

It has been a really long time since I have blogged. I have been feeling really down and feeling I didn't have a lot to say. I have had a lot of changes over the past 5 months and I didn't adjust well with the changes.
I left my job of 10 years in September to go to something completely different. It was better hours, but out of my comfort zone. I met some really awesome people but the job wasn't a good fit. I was also in a car accident the 2nd week of my new job and ended up with pretty bad concussion that effected me for a good two weeks. Missing my work and accomplishments I had at my previous job, I reached out to the owner to see if a position was open for me to return to. Luckily my position had not been filled, and I was able to go back to my job. I am really happy about doing this too. When I left, I thought I needed to leave because I wasn't a good fit for this job. I thought I needed to do something different. Well I did and I learned that I am to be doing what I have been doing for the past 10 years. Not only do I enjoy my work but I am really good at my job. Every job has its ups and downs, and good days and bad days. I just need to sit back and enjoy the ride.
With the job change came with an insurance change. Since my weight loss program was with my insurance I was no longer able to work with my doctor on my VLCD. He helped me transition to real food and gave me tips on how to succeed until I was able to get back on the program. I did great at the beginning. But I was going from a job when I could take the breaks and lunch when I wanted to and was able to set my schedule to punching a clock and allowed only so much time to be away from desk. Including bathroom breaks, and when you drink 100 ounces of water a day...you can imagine my break time was eaten up in the bathroom so to speak. I became unhappy with the change and my depression came on full on. You add the holidays in the mix and I was an emotional mess, which led to emotional eating. Which led to weight gain. As the pounds came back the deeper my depression came on. I stopped working out and i didn't care what I put in my mouth food wise. My water intake went way down. I was lucky if I would drink 64 ounces a day. I slowly went into my bad habits. I knew I was spiraling as the scale was getting a larger number on it. I knew I had to make a change and that is when I reached out to my old boss. I am proud of myself for having the knowledge to make a change as well as the strength to do what is best for me.
So I am now back at my old job and I am very happy. I am getting a grasp on my depression again and I am starting back on my VLCD today. I know this will be a challenge as I am going to want the real food but I can't have it right now. I still have my food addictions and they are going to kill me if I don't get a grasp on them. I am going to make the most of this second chance and I now know that I am in control! I am going to be successful. I have about 100 pounds to lose to reach my weight range goal. I know I can do it. My spark family is an amazing support and I can't thank you enough !
Wow I guess I had a lot to say today! I am sorry it was so long but I needed to get this out to help me on my new journey!

One step at a time, one day at a time!
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  • no profile photo CD15998085
    I am very sorry to hear about your downfall but I am happy about you going to continue with your goals now that you are back to your job of 10 years. I know it is a very hard road to take but you will get there eventually and you will be very happy about the results. I have been there while I let my life just pass by but in the last year I have said enough was enough and doing the weight loss for myself and no one else. Good Luck
    1448 days ago
    Glad you're back! It's only a short moment of your life. Just like getting back into VLCD will only be short period of your life. Soon you will be back to "real" food again! Good luck to you!
    1461 days ago
    Life gets in the way for all of us but I'm happy to hear that you were able to get yourself back to a good place. That 100 pounds is totally achievable especially by someone as strong and determined as you are. Just take it a day and pound at a time. emoticon emoticon
    1464 days ago
  • FINGERS51970
    some times in life you have to try something new to realize what you already have is what you really want. good for you! i'm so happy you're back on track!
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    1469 days ago
    Thank you for sharing your journey with us, I understand wanting change and then realizing it was not for you. Happy for you that you were able to go back to your previous job, things happen we all make decisions like that in our lives. Glad to see you posting again. Have a great weekend. emoticon emoticon
    1470 days ago
    So glad to have you back! You inspire me so much and I know you will have wonderful success!
    1470 days ago
    You've been thru. Let's hope that settling into your new old job goes well and you can get some time to just chill a little. Good luck w/ your nutrition plan
    1470 days ago
    Good for you for getting back on track. You seem to be in a good place, now! You can do this.
    1470 days ago
    I'm so glad you are back with us & getting things back in line with where you want them. I missed you while you were gone. And I know you will have GREAT success going forward!!! You are so totally worth it Sam!!!
    1471 days ago
    way to go - you have a lot of changes in your life and I also understand (the whole job thing) but you had the courage to get out there and try new things - So what if they did not work out - "everything happens for a reason" - you now know that your current job is the best job for you - Keep up the great work!! emoticon emoticon
    1471 days ago
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