craziness of my habitual behavior
Thursday, March 02, 2017
I go up. I go down. And yet, things do change....the weather, the world and my health. I sometimes forget that while I am meandering through life without focus, not thinking about consequences and commitment, I continue to age and waste my life. Yes, waste!! I keep using the excuse that I can eat unhealthy today or not exercise....I'll do it tomorrow. Tomorrow I say....I'll do it tomorrow....and tomorrow..and tomorrow. Waste....money on junk food...holy smokes....I looked at my bank statement and I spent over $500 last month on eating out, coffee drinks, ordering out and snacks...none of them good for me. Yet--when I go to the grocery store I penny pinch on buying fresh produce and healthy proteins....really....stop and think of the craziness behind these behaviors. What in the hell is wrong with me?
The answer is actually quite simple. Stopping long enough to catch my breath and taking time to focus and think...setting priorities and then having enough commitment to follow through. It's simple on paper, but in everyday busy life it seems impossible to facilitate. And, I realize that after a life of peddling as fast and frantic as humanly possible..this not thinking and only grabbing whatever is in front of me to eat...has became habitual. A habit of not taking care of myself. A habit of putting healthy choices and wasting money are all made from the same frantic behaviors. Healthy living is all encompassing. You want to save money ---go back to the basics---healthy sensible choices.
Good living habits are as much a habit as bad habits are...I just have to slow down enough to turn myself in the right direction...