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Thinking on change

Saturday, March 04, 2017

Have you ever found yourself along life's journey and suddenly come to a point where you have to make a choice of what direction you need to take? Yeah, that's where I am right now. It's not an easy choice to make, and I don't know how to explain it to people when they ask me what it is that I want to do right now. Because honest, I really don't know myself.

I thought I knew exactly what I wanted to do, when I wanted to do it, and why I wanted to do it. But now that I am there. I no longer want to be here.

In my past two positions, I found myself exhausted all of the time: mentally, emotionally, and physically. So much so, that it became the source of contention with my employers when I did start to seek help for those issues, because that seeking help came a little too late in the game. It was becoming all too clear that the career path that I had chosen, while I was good at it, was not healthy for me.

But what am I to do? I have to pay the bills somehow, and to make a career change as I fast approach my 50th birthday is not always an easy choice to make. I've somehow got to figure out a way to reinvent myself in a way that attracts people to my strengths that just happen to also be my passions. But what are my passions? What is it that makes me happy? I only know that what I do now is not it.

One of my passions is writing. So much so, that is what I studied in college. My first seven years out of college involved jobs in the technical writing world. In fact, when I tell recruiters that I am interested in technical writing jobs today, they literally laugh at me. Why do they laugh at me? I don't understand this laughing at me.

I thought I went in a direction in my life that was predestined to be the right choice. Needless to say, it was not the right one for me. I need to make better choices, and unfortunately they need to happen sooner than later. I've purchased books, taken tests, and done all kinds of things to identify what it is I need to be doing, and I laugh at the fact that each time, IT is always at the bottom of the list, while art and writing are at the top.

Definitely time to redefine myself.

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  • JAZZEJR
    How can you know if THIS job is the one you'll enjoy until you're doing it? The actual job is often different even from its own official description. Jump in, My Dear.
    1089 days ago
  • CHAR46SUE
    emoticon emoticon Good luck!
    1090 days ago
  • RETIREESMITH
    Wishing you the best in your challenges. Take care of yourself.
    1090 days ago
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