Losing for Me Journey - 4/5/17
Wednesday, April 05, 2017
Today is day 5 of my new journey. I've spent so much time in my life taking care of other people I struggle to take care of me. I am horrible at actually taking care of myself. I put everyone else first. I gained 30 pounds last year taking care of my husband who was admitted to the hospital 3 times last year. I'm determined to lose the weight. I have 110 pounds I want to lose. I struggle with a strong support system. My husband does not hold me accountable when I stress or emotional eat. I feel alone sometimes like no one understands how I feel. I decided it was time to stop writing this in my journal and posting on my blog. I need to share these feelings with someone. I don't have any friends or family who really get it.
I've started tracking the foods I eat. I struggle with food. I have irritable bowel syndrome and my doctor wanted me to follow a low FODMAP diet. That has been very difficult and frustrating. It's also hard to find things where I live. I've been learning what I can eat and what I can't. I am lactose intolerant so I find myself reading the ingredients to everything I buy. Drinking milk makes me quite ill. I have a list of items I can't eat now. I'm finding out the foods that are not a good idea for me to eat. I'm also recovering from a car accident. I have to go to physical therapy for my back. I am doing my best to not let theses setbacks get to me. I walk short distances and do light exercise. I know I will get back to my previous fitness level. I can do this for me.