I know what I want to be when I grow up.

I have done this "I want to lose weight" bit over and over. I wanted to change i wanted to eat healthy. But did I really though? Apparently not. Thinking about it now, I was looking for a quick fix. Whether I knew about it or not, I tried to find short cuts. Lately I've been spending hours and hours reaserching things every day. I started getting into the idea of working out. So that was a good start. Fast forward to now, my husband and I are starting a healthy lifestyle together. Its stressful sometimes but its the best thing in the world to me! When we go to the gym my endorphins are running and having the person I love with me is the most amazing feeling. Anyway! Haha. But when we are at the gym and I'm doing a small competition with him and in helping through new workouts its been making me the most happy. Just last night my best friend said she wanted to start taking this seriously as well and I was so excited of the idea of helping her too! We talked for hours about it! The best way to get this feeling over and over is becoming a personal trainer! Plus my husband is in the navy so I can go to collage for free (if not super cheap) I have the reasourses and all I need is the hard work put into it. I finally have a real actual goal. I want to help others coming out of their shell and becoming a happier healthier version of themselves. My depression is at bay currently. I know what it is like to feel the real self when you get your anxiety depression and anything else. Working out is helping me do that. Healthy eating is helping me do that. I want to show others this feeling. Im excited to have something to work towards. Im happy its happening right now in my life and not before. Im so happy and I want to reach my dream goal with the people I love the most. Everything happens for a reason. I love the universe haha. Well thank you for letting me vent if you read this haha