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Saturday, April 22, 2017

Ok so I'm in my first big stall. I haven't lost weight since December. I'm ok with that. December was my one year since surgery and including the four months leading to surgery I have lost 220lbs. 408 to 188. What I wasn't prepared for is the amount of insecurity I now have about my appearance. I've never thought I was pretty and still don't, but I was ok with that before. Now I look in the mirror and I don't recognize myself. I look older and like my mom or my sister not me. I don't like how any of my clothes fit and getting dressed now takes forever and I am still unhappy with the results. The weirdest thing is I didn't do this for my looks but for my health, and I was far more self confident beforehand. Not recognizing myself freaks me out. I would still do it all again today knowing what I know now, but has anyone else experienced this?
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  • PATTI_PAL1
    You have come so far and arre such an inspiration to me. Your feelings are normal...you are a new person.

    1126 days ago
  • VANILLASKY15
    I can totally relate. I went from 420 to 215 and am experiencing similar feelings. I am currently maintaining per my doctors request so my body has time to rest and my head to catch up.
    1128 days ago
  • no profile photo INCH_BY_INCH
    Your health takes precedent; hang in there, even good changes take time to adjust too. emoticon
    1129 days ago
  • 1CRAZYDOG
    HUGS . . . the changes that happen when you lose weight can be difficult to assimilate! Hang in there. Do you have a support group of those who've had bariatric surgery? Maybe that would help. Sending hugs your way.
    1129 days ago
  • SUSANH1230
    Loving ourselves is hard sometimes when we've lost weight but our brains didn't keep up. Your journey has been amazing. I am proud of you. Look in the mirror and tell yourself something positive. emoticon
    1129 days ago
  • no profile photo EVIE4NOW
    I am a bit amazed when I see a face and not a fat face. I actually have contours and that's so cool to see instead of flabby cheeks and 2 or 3 chins. LOL
    1129 days ago
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