Eating myself to death ...
Sunday, April 23, 2017
I just weighed myself, I gained 10 lbs in one month ! I am literally eating myself to death. Very close to my highest ever weight. I am letting my love for food control my entire life.
My weight and lifestyle are affecting me in so many ways both physically and mentally.
At almost 400 lbs. I am restricted as to what i can do physically. My knees and back are wore out from years of abuse on my body. I get winded and tire easily as it is quite a struggle to carry around this much extra weight.
Mentally my self esteem is very low, I am getting so I don't want to even go to the grocery store any more because I am embarrassed to have anyone see what I have done to my self. Getting around is getting more difficult with each pound I gain and every day that I am sedentary. I feel like I am existing in this world but not really living, just going through the motions.
I know it is up to me to make changes in my life, I know it is not too late, I know what I need to do but it is definitely overwhelming. Having a hard time seeing past the big picture and how far I have to go.
I need to start taking those baby steps, work a little harder on getting rid of my "all or nothing " mentality and quit making excuses and feeling sorry for myself.
I need to do this, eating myself to death is not the way I want to spend the rest of my life. I am tired of life passing me by. Time to take that first baby step !