What I've been up to
Monday, May 29, 2017
Been a long time since I've been on SparkPeople. Heck, it's been a long time since I cared to even try and think about my ever growing waistline. I really just didn't care ... until March when I stepped on the scale at the doctor's office and she slid it all the way over to the right on the 150 setting ... and the lever didn't budge. She put it on the 200 slot and tapped it over to 209 lbs. I wanted to bursting tears. I have never weighed over 200 lbs. I vividly remember crying when I was pregnant the first time and weighed in at over 150 lbs.
A couple of weeks later, a gal I used to work with invited me to her closed group on Facebook. She is sharing her fitness/health action plan with others who she believes will support her AND who want to make the same step. I ghosted her posts for a couple more weeks, trying to figure out where I'm at and where I'm headed. Then, one day she sent me a private message just checking in to see how my workouts were going! Oh! Somebody actually was holding me accountable in a very gentle way! It was another tearful moment. That was the start of my brain change. I started making better food choices and downloading fitness apps on my phone.
Jump ahead a couple more weeks and my family is gathered at Fort Rucker, AL for our youngest son's Warrant Officer graduation. I took most of the pictures (thankfully) but the few that I am in were the nail in the coffin of my unhealthy eating and sluggish lifestyle. I didn't almost cry, I did cry. My hands and arms looked so big. My hips and stomach have always been on the heavy side but I can see the lower stomach droop over.
I am not helpless but rather encouraged by the tears that I cried when no one was around. For the first time in the past 3 years, I feel like I CAN. So I will! I've started assembling a"hotel kitchenette" for my traveling. (I travel for work - usually fly.). I've got a workout plan for the week. And I believe I can ... with hard work, sweat, probably some tears and a strong support network ... I CAN!