Can I stay with it?
Saturday, June 03, 2017
I rejoined Spark people a year ago. I fell off program twice since then, so I was on program and off program about an equal amount. Tomorrow is weigh in day and I'm dreading it. I have to accept whatever it is. I'm just really hoping that it is less than my starting weight last year.
Why did I fall off program? I let the stress and depression I felt get the better of me and allowed myself to be pulled off course. I stopped tracking anything or weighing myself.
Did I learn anything from the experience? Yes, I learned that changing old patterns of life takes constant attention. Just because things are going well does not mean that I should let my guard down. I have to keep past patterns in mind and react faster and better when I see them starting again. I need to get a better handle stress and depression.
Do I have a plan to help myself stick with it this time? I think so...sorta.... I'm afraid of setting myself up for failure again, so I'm keeping the plan loose.
This is the plan:
Try to eat on target each day.
Get at least 10 minutes of walking in each day.
Do some kind of exercise beyond the walking every day.
Use journaling to help myself see patterns and help myself stay on track.
Journaling - I'm going to use this blog for that because it already exists. I don't need more things to take care of by starting something new.
I joined the official stress busting group to help me get a handle on that. The group is set up like a month long challenge and rating your daily stress level is part of it. Each item is rated 1 - 5 with 5 being the highest of best result.
Energy level - 3
Stress level - 3
Quality of sleep - 3
Self-Esteem - 1
I'm in a group about organizing and time management that suggests doing 3 things toward that a day. Today I want to do and out away dishes ( Yesterdays are still in the sink and the day befores are in dishwasher ready to be put away), fold laundry and put it away (it's been sitting waiting for me for a couple days now) and clean the liter box (its time to dump it, put in new liter and re-line the box it sits in to keep the dog out of it).
For fun today I will play on the computer, read and play with the pets. Maybe I'll give them both a good brushing and clip any claws needing it after my son gets up. I need help holding them for the claw trimming to make it easier on them and me.
Added later in evening
I ended up cooking more than I had planned and doing a load of laundry that I planned to do tomorrow so these are replacing the liter box super cleaning. I'll do that tomorrow.