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Denied - Day 12 of the Diva's Re-Spark

Monday, June 05, 2017

Well, I didn't get the 3rd apartment that I applied for. I offered the management company so much information, so much paperwork and still, no dice. I simply don't make enough and my credit is only "fair". I've done my very best to do what I needed to get my credit back to a better place, but alas, it simply wasn't enough. My new plan now is to simply stay at my current residence with my roommate (even though it is toxic to a certain extent) for 6 months or so, while I build my credit up. I applied for a credit card with Discover, so hopefully I'll be able to get myself financially back on track. It's not ideal, but with my not being able to move back home, this is my best bet. I'll simply make the best of it.

My show opened this past Friday to a full house on opening night! It was awesome and as always, my cast and I had a blast. They're truly a good group of people. They've been a breath of fresh air especially compared to the last cast I was apart of. While it was artistically one of the best things I've ever done, the negativity with a few cast members were downright mean. Not always towards me, but in secret and behind backs. It was very hurtful to hear and witness it. It got to a point where I couldn't stand to even be in the same room with the two of them. So much anger and so much bitterness. I'm beyond grateful for my new cast and am glad to be around them every weekend. They're truly great, a lot of fun and so loving. My parents are coming next Saturday night and I can't wait for them to see it.

I'm dealing with the depressive side of my bi-polar, so I'm not feeling the best. I'm not sleeping well at all either, lethargy is my middle name these days. I hate to say that, but it's true. With my being off work since Thursday, my structured eating times were off, so I'd either eat too late or eat a bit too much (Including one alcoholic drink on Friday night). I stopped caring for a bit, and didn't track, but I'm picking myself back up and am not giving up. I'm .5lbs down after a very busy weekend and I'm grateful for every ounce of that pound. Now that my show is open, I'll have a lot more time to spend at home to rest with my cat Reno. Hopefully my doctor will be able to give me a different sleep med as the ones I've been using no longer are doing their job. We'll see what happens.

Here's to a decent weigh in, lots of rest and seeing my beloved castmates on Friday!
Have a great week SparkFam!

Miss B
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    1370 days ago
    I know well those lethargic days...working through one now. I don't think there's much fighting with them, just roll with it and don't be too hard on yourself. We always come out the other side ready to Spark!

    1402 days ago
    Sorry, but hopefully the approval will come soon. Can you rent a studio or guest house for cheaper?
    Glad the show is with a better cast. I hate negative gossipers!
    1407 days ago
  • SUGAR0814
    Sorry to hear you were denied. emoticon
    1408 days ago
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