Third Time's the Charm
Wednesday, June 21, 2017
Not exactly sure if this is the third time or the 30th time. Seems like I've been trying to lose weight all my life. I look back at photos of my teenage and college self and think - if only I weighed that much now. It makes me kind of mad at my mom for painting this self-image for me that I was fat. I wasn't. I wasn't skinny by any means but I wasn't FAT either.
Anyway, after years of weight watchers and other diets, I joined Spark back in 2006 or 2007, and lost 65 pounds. It was great - the weight came off in about 9 months time and stayed off for a good year or more. But little by little it crept back on, every single pound. And since I was really only halfway to my ultimate goal, it was very frustrating.
So for several years I just didn't care. Then in 2015 I started walking, more as a stress reliever than anything else. I walked almost every day. I started feeling more energized, and lost about 25 pounds. During 2016 I didn't really diet, but I had made a list of foods that would be beneficial to me, and concentrated on ridding my diet of processed food, and cooking and baking all my own meals, using real food, organic when I could afford it, and healthier too.
Then as life is known to do, I seemed to run out of time to make healthy eating a priority. So the 25 pounds leapt back on. FAST.
I'd planned to restart this healthy eating effort in November 2017, after I retire and have TIME to do all the fiddly work that it involves. But then I realized that I was an exhausted mess, and needed to start now rather than later.
It's tough getting back on this bandwagon. Often, most of my free time is spent planning and prepping for the next day's meals. I've been tracking for 12 days now, and still have not had time to make the whole grain muffins I'd like to try so I can get some extra fiber.
It's also taking time to become reacquainted with Spark. The program has really come a long way. I'm loving the app on my phone and the ease of tracking and accessing all the wonderful reference materials. Exploring Spark has become my latest hobby.
I'm hoping I can lose 30 pounds by the beginning of November. I will be really happy if I do. Then I can really cut loose and hit it full bore. I will start walking every day in November. Until then, I am fitting it in once a week in between water aerobics and yoga. Gotta love summer!
Right now I feel cautiously optimistic about it all. I have so much going on, with work and home and hobbies and friends, and that in itself has made me feel so exhausted. But perhaps, little by little, as I incorporate my healthy choices through Spark, I can start to feel the energy return, and the weight start to drop. And that will indeed be charming!