Here I go again
Wednesday, June 28, 2017
Here I Go Again my weight loss journey. I have been on this path so many times. It is really starting to frustrate me. 15 ye
ars ago I started the road of emotional eating. I had different roles. I lost my mom to cancer and a year later I became a mother role of two girls. I never fully grieved my mom. So instead of handling issues that came my way, I thought food is nice and fun. So I used food to comfort me and in social situations and out of boredom. Well this added up. My new behavior that started 15 years ago is now a weight issue. I have gained about 50 to 60 lbs. Just writing this makes me sad. I miss myself ,I miss my mindful self. I miss my handling my feelings better. I miss using food more as daily living. Not in the way where I'm abusing myself. I have a whole closet with nice clothes that I bought that year and a half ago. I lost 10 lbs or 12 and I bought new clothes and I gained weight. When will this stop? I really have to be strong minded on this new journey of healthy living. Working out is not a problem with me . I love it. I like to walk ,Zumba ,run, lift weights, yoga ,you name it ,hiking, but eating is my main issue. I need to step up and love myself without masking my emotional Self. Or at least do it anymore non abusing way. This is where I should change my behavior what should I do at night when my anxiety kicks in. So I work with children with some behavior challenges and we call changing their behavior, replacing their behavior and shaping what we want or what we desire that's positive. My goal for my emotional eating is acknowledging my feelings and journaling taking care of myself like with facials or with exercising or yoga. If I do need to eat it has to be healthy. Nothing with butter, bread sugar or chips. I can have cottage cheese fruit, cut up vegetables, air pop popcorn and more. It's really hard but I can do this. I'll be in more detail about my goals on my next blog and I will right out my rewards that I will earn with my weight loss and behavior changes. Does anybody have any suggestions?