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Here I go again

Wednesday, June 28, 2017

Here I Go Again my weight loss journey. I have been on this path so many times. It is really starting to frustrate me. 15 ye ars ago I started the road of emotional eating. I had different roles. I lost my mom to cancer and a year later I became a mother role of two girls. I never fully grieved my mom. So instead of handling issues that came my way, I thought food is nice and fun. So I used food to comfort me and in social situations and out of boredom. Well this added up. My new behavior that started 15 years ago is now a weight issue. I have gained about 50 to 60 lbs. Just writing this makes me sad. I miss myself ,I miss my mindful self. I miss my handling my feelings better. I miss using food more as daily living. Not in the way where I'm abusing myself. I have a whole closet with nice clothes that I bought that year and a half ago. I lost 10 lbs or 12 and I bought new clothes and I gained weight. When will this stop? I really have to be strong minded on this new journey of healthy living. Working out is not a problem with me . I love it. I like to walk ,Zumba ,run, lift weights, yoga ,you name it ,hiking, but eating is my main issue. I need to step up and love myself without masking my emotional Self. Or at least do it anymore non abusing way. This is where I should change my behavior what should I do at night when my anxiety kicks in. So I work with children with some behavior challenges and we call changing their behavior, replacing their behavior and shaping what we want or what we desire that's positive. My goal for my emotional eating is acknowledging my feelings and journaling taking care of myself like with facials or with exercising or yoga. If I do need to eat it has to be healthy. Nothing with butter, bread sugar or chips. I can have cottage cheese fruit, cut up vegetables, air pop popcorn and more. It's really hard but I can do this. I'll be in more detail about my goals on my next blog and I will right out my rewards that I will earn with my weight loss and behavior changes. Does anybody have any suggestions? Good night
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  • no profile photo CHRISTOPHER63
    1188 days ago
    If you do what Sp tells you to, making sure you drink your water as you should, you will get where you want to go. SP really works
    1244 days ago
    Thank u
    1245 days ago
  • RHOOK20047
    Welcome to SparkPeople. We are all here for the same reason, no matter what our personal story is. We are here to help each other to get to that healthy point we want to be in our lives. It is not going to be easy, but it is attainable. Make small goals and they will lead to big successes. You have to make you #1 and tell yourself that you are worth it. If you don't take care of yourself you can't take care of anyone else. If I can help in anyway, feel free to reach out to me! So to me it sounds like you hit the healthy road 15 years ago and have never really lost your way! You are back and the past is the past, we only worry about today and tomorrow!You can do it! We are here to help! Welcome and get active on this site. emoticon
    1245 days ago
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