Staring Down a Craving
Saturday, July 01, 2017
Yesterday I had a big breakfast and big lunch, so only had 100 calories left. I didn't feel hungry at dinner time so I waited until I did. I fought the urge to grab a snack that would put me over my calories for the day. I fought it hard. Sat with my feelings and went through the experience of consciously feeling hunger and not giving in to a craving. I wanted potato chips. Or toast with butter. Or ice cream. In the end I ate two small kiwi, which I had read pack a lot of serotonin. I waited until I could actually feel the craving being satisfied. That's the first time in a long time I consciously sat with my food feelings, and realized the difference between a physical hunger for food and a mental desire for satisfaction. It was a major victory.
I don't want to go through something like that everyday. I want to spread out my calories evenly throughout the day. But I will always have cravings regardless of what and when I eat and I hope that I'm gaining the strength and knowledge to handle them.