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""TAKING TWO STEPS BACK""

Wednesday, July 05, 2017

This is an update of how I'm doing. I've continued my exercises, up from 5 min. twice a day to 7 min. twice a day, mostly strength and some with weights and resistance bands. I've increased my walking from 10 min. twice daily to 20 min. twice daily. I had been feeling stronger, but not near to what I was. I will also be getting Home Health Care for 3 hours a week. I also learned from my social worker that I can get rides to my Dr.'s appt's., and also other service called "Dial-A-Ride" for other things, costing only $3.00. I have found out I am qualified for other things, and I don't feel guilty about accepting their help. Before this happened, I wouldn't have accepted the help, thinking I wasn't worthy of any help. I'm getting lots of love, prayers, and support from my family, and so, so, many friends. I need that, but I'm the only one who can do this for myself. I also had complete blood work, and the only thing wrong is I'm a little anemic, so have to get lots more iron. It's so hard sometimes. Then Sun. night I was at my computer, ordering groceries. Next thing I knew I was off the chair, my head hurting like hell. I'd had another seizure (for those who don't know I have epilepsy, and have had seizures since I was 19.) I fell to the side, and hit my head on the steam heater, cutting my head with about a 2" cut, not too deep, but enough to make it bleed. I also have another bump on top of my head, and my face and mouth are very sore. Monday, and yesterday I slept most of the day, and still have a couple of sore bumps on my head, and just being sore all over. I probably won't go walking till Friday. I feel like why now....it's like I have to start all over, because I lost the progress I made. I've cried a lot...at least it relieves some of the anger. So many have asked how I'm doing so I thought it was much easier to do it this way.
I'm doing the best I can, even with all the bumps in the road. I will get better, & I don't care how much time it takes.
Thanks everyone for caring.
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  • IAMBLESSED103
    Hang in there! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1242 days ago
  • READYRISA
    Hello Barb, I'm so sorry I am late reading your blog entry...

    I hope things are better and hoping things are getting better with each passing day.

    You are such a light of hope for many, many people ....including me...

    God bless you...!!!

    HUGS,
    Risa
    1296 days ago
  • ISNESS
    Hello Barb, I'm so sorry to read you through discomfort, illness seasures and you still have so much love to give! I admire you! I live in 33626 Tampa and have plenty of time if you are by coincidence somewhere near to me.. I could help ☺️ ~Ivana
    1298 days ago
  • HEALTHYHEARTZ
    I was a home health care provider for a while. I enjoyed meeting people and helping them have a successful day. It sparked something in me. I was excited to see the familiar faces everyday. I also remember my trips with dial-a-ride. Very convenient. I lived in a city with no public transportation and this service was wonderful. You are in my thoughts.
    1315 days ago
  • HOLLYM48
    Hi Barb!
    I hope this week is better and things are getting better with each passing day. Keep the positive attitude. You will get through this stronger than ever! Big hugs!
    1320 days ago
  • SILVAS7
    How is your progress to date ? Any improvement in your strength? You and Anissa are in my prayers daily and at times several times a day !
    1321 days ago
  • UNICORN212
    Sorry I missed this last week. Take whatever assistance is offered. Every little bit helps. This may sound funny, but it your TSH for thyroid (actually the pituitary telling the thyroid more hormone is needed) on the low side, even at the bottom of the normal range? I had an epileptic dog and after seeing research on humans, they decided that since her thyroid was in the low end of the "normal" range, they would put her on thyroid meds. She then went 3 years without a seizure. My daughter had a seizure too (I do not know if she had more) and they ended up putting her on thyroid meds too. It is worth looking into. Any reduction in seizures is good.

    In the mean time, take care of yourself, don't rush things, and don't over-do. You need healing time now.

    Sending prayers!
    Nancy
    1331 days ago
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    Sorry I'm late reading this Barb. Hope you are doing well now. You are such a strong woman in how you deal with your setbacks. You are an amazing lady and think of you often. Hugs dear friend. emoticon
    1333 days ago
  • ZANYGIRL1
    So sorry for your setbacks, Barb. Sending love and prayers your way. emoticon
    1334 days ago
  • NJ_BEACHCOMBERS
    So sorry to hear of this..life can be difficult..I will be praying for you..just take it slow and I will pray that you gain strength each and everyday. emoticon
    1334 days ago
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    YOU ARE WORTH IT!!! emoticon
    1336 days ago
  • no profile photo CD17374413
    Love and acceptance of yourself helps a lot. I, myself, have physical hurdles every day. However, I am very sad you had to experience another seizure! I hope you heal very quickly and so glad you are getting much help. You know so many of us care very much for you! You are a loving, inspiring woman! Sometimes it's hard to keep picking yourself up and dusting yourself off and starting over, however, I am grateful that you do! You haven't lost your perseverance! I pray things get better and that the God of all hope and understanding would be by your side! You've got a big cheering squad! You can do this!!! We are in it to win it! No turning back!!! You help me know that no matter how hard things can be sometimes, never give up on yourself! You are beautiful! Hugs and love always, your friend, Karen emoticon
    1336 days ago
  • WORKOUTWITHPAM
    I am so sorry to hear about your injuries. I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Take care of yourself, and know that you have so many friends who think you are very PRECIOUS!
    HUGS
    Pam
    1337 days ago
  • AHAVAH123
    Oh boy, I am so sorry to hear of all the pain that you have been suffering.
    Setbacks can be difficult to deal with. But you ARE an overcomer for sure.
    And I wish you the best with recovery and getting to where you wish to be.
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    1338 days ago
  • SONFLOWER_TX
    It sounds to me like you might be overdoing it! Stay safe!
    1338 days ago
  • LINDA!
    emoticon emoticon Please take care. Rest as often as you can. We understand when you are too weak or tired to post.
    1338 days ago
  • SHAWFAN
    emoticon I'm so sorry you had this set back Barb. What's important is that you take care of yourself.
    I'm very glad that you're getting ideas on getting help when you need it. That will make you feel much better, just being able to get out and about without fear of what may happen. You won't be alone. Take the help where you can get it, dear friend. That's what it's there for.
    My Thoughts and prayers to you, sweetheart. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1339 days ago
  • LIVINTODAY
    Can you even imagine yourself telling someone else that they aren't worthy?? Of course NOT! So don't tell yourself that either. It is time to be the friend to yourself that you are to so many others.

    Hope the bump on the head will heal quickly. Hope the other ills are getting better too. So glad to hear that you are still determined. You WILL achieve, and accomplish your goals!
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    1339 days ago
  • JANTHEBLONDE
    I am so sorry to hear about your setback Barb! I'm glad you're excepting help in these tough times! You are in my thoughts and prayers!
    Hugs and love, xoxo
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    1339 days ago
  • ELIZACG9
    I am so happy your being active.....it will help you...isn't it??? emoticon

    Mom had help too ....they show you how to do the exercises properly and if you can get rides....wow...beautiful!!!!!!! emoticon
    I am truly 'sorry' about the seizures but, you better just take it easy... emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1339 days ago

    Comment edited on: 7/6/2017 10:17:19 AM
  • LUCYCAN7
    Thinking of"YOU"Barbie!!!Lots of emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon Maybe you can look into getting a seizure dog as the others suggested! emoticon
    1339 days ago
  • GODS-PRINCESS
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    1339 days ago
  • 1CRAZYDOG
    OH sweetheart, I am so sorry for your injuries and that those darn seizures reared their ugly head again. **SIGH** I was thinking of the same thing as SKYDRAKE . . . a seizure dog. Don't know if that would be practical for you, but IF it would be, it's worth a shot.

    So sorry and KNOW you have my prayers.
    1339 days ago
  • VALYNN26
    I am so sorry to hear about this. I am sending BIG hugs and well wishes that you're soon feeling much better emoticon
    1339 days ago
  • OXYGEN9
    I am sending healthy, healing thoughts your way Barb. Feel better soon! emoticon emoticon
    1339 days ago
  • NEW-CAZ
    I'm sorry you had a setback Barb, I had no idea you had epilepsy- you cope very well with it.
    I'm glad you're accepting the help on offer.
    I hope you feel better soon, your "can do" attitude has seen through so much you'll get there, emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1339 days ago
  • MISS-WILLOW
    I feel for you. I'm sorry you were injured.

    I too had to bite my indepedent pride and accept food share and energy help. It's humbling but I understand it helps me now that my income is limited.

    I went from walking up to 3 miles a day to a wheelchair. I ten could walk about 10 feet and I'd be out of breath for several minutes. Then I could walk a small loop in my house. Yesterday I walked 16 loops before resting again. It's a battle but I know we both will continue to get stronger. If possible, ask your dr you order physical therapy. I just did that last week. I've just said a prayer for you!
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    1340 days ago

    Comment edited on: 7/6/2017 1:42:27 AM
  • VEENAS1
    Praying that you get better.
    1340 days ago
  • SUBMOM2
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    1340 days ago
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    1340 days ago
  • JACKIEWALKS4FUN
    I am sad to read this. Sorry about your setback I sure love what you write at the end, your never giving up spirit will take you far.
    Good to accept help, you are worthy and I am glad that you have lots of support from family and friends.
    A good cry always helps.
    Many emoticon and prayers for you to feel stronger and feel better each and every day.
    1340 days ago
  • SKYDRAKE
    Awww. I am sorry to hear about your set back. Have you ever looked into getting a seizure dog? Some can even detect a seizure before it happens.

    I am glad you are willing to accept the help. There are a lot of people that scam the system that don't deserve it. You, my dear, are not a scammer. Accept what is offered.

    Crying can be cathartic and take the mad and sad out of you.
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    1340 days ago
  • HMBROWN1
    So sorry to hear about this! I am so glad to hear that there are services available to help you. Sending hugs and prayers. Heather
    1340 days ago
  • VEGGIEPAT
    Oh girl! I am so sorry. My heart goes with you and sending spirits of healing. And yes, you so deserve to get help and I am glad you are getting as much as you can. You are very much worthy and are so very special. Sending you healing waves of love and know how much you are loved. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1340 days ago
  • HOLLYM48
    I am sorry you have had another step backward. I hope that you will gain strength each day and will be on your way to getting better each day. I am glad you are getting help and accepting it. We all need help in tough times.
    Feel better soon. Big hugs!!
    1340 days ago
  • STARLITNIGHT
    A great big hug and best wishes on your recovery Barb. emoticon
    1340 days ago
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