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I'm going to give up fighting this cold tomorrow.......

Wednesday, July 19, 2017

Tomorrow I'll have had this cold for a week. In the beginning I didn't think it was going to be a bad cold but after driving home from Washington it turned on me. Today I can barely walk 10' without coughing and that is just wrong.

So if I can't get in to see my doctor I'll go to the walk-in clinic tomorrow. I carried a couple of more things in from the car today and I managed to empty the dishwasher that the boys filled while I was gone. Sure can't figure out what they ate tho.

So tonight I just wanted something soothing on my throat for dinner so I opted for a big bowl of fruit and a tiny bit of ice cream. Yesterday I did buy strawberries, raspberries and blueberries. I threw them all into a big bowl and enjoyed them today. But I have plenty left for a couple of more days. I'm trying to be better about eating my fruits and veggies. This learning how to take care of self is so hard. Also turning off that little voice in the back of my head (that belonged to my mother) is not easy to turn off.

At least she's no longer trying to tuck in my shirts or straighten my glasses when I walk into rooms. It's sad she's gone to be with dad and my siblings but I'm thinking I might be able to not listen her to so much anymore.
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  • MOONGLOWSNANA
    After my mom passed away I found out things I never knew about her when she was alive. I wish we could have talked about things on an adult to adult level, but she took so many of her secrets with her. I learned to forgive my mother for her shortcomings and for the many things she said or did that hurt me. When we forgive we are more able to put the past behind us, learn from it and move on. Live your life the way you want. You no longer need her approval. You're all grown up now. Treat yourself, your kids, grands and friends the way you want to be treated. Fill your heart with love. emoticon
    947 days ago
  • KENDRACARROLL
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  • KOFFEENUT
    As much as you loved your mom (and she loved you), she was an imperfect person, like the rest of us. ALL parents bring some of that imperfection into the lives of their kids, and the best thing we can do is let go of the things that weren't helpful to us and hold onto the things that were -
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  • FRAN0426
    Glad to hear you are going to have the cough/cold checked out tomorrow. Hope you start feeling better soon.
    948 days ago
  • SUSANH1230
    Sure hope you feel better soon. That cough sounds nerve racking.

    I completely understand the voice in the back of your head belonging to your mother. My mom died a year ago at age 94. I was her only caregiver for the last 5 years of her life. I can still hear her disapproval of nearly everything I did in the back of my head. I'm still letting her have control. If you can figure it out let me know.
    948 days ago
  • RAMONA1954
    It's an adjustment. Hope you feel better soon
    948 days ago
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