Keep Moving Forward
Saturday, July 22, 2017
I am at this point in my journey , where I am discovering old hurt emotions from my past. From people who shunned me and ridiculed me because of my size. But now they all act as if they were always my friends way back when. Today is a reunion of sorts with some of these ladies I went to school with. I choose not to go,,,,,,,,
Why do I want to spend time and money with people who did not support me in my teen years or invite me to parties ? I heard whispers from alot of them who were embarressed because of my size.
My life is now,,, I am looking at who I was,, an insecure woman as a girl, who lacked self esteem and confidence, and here I am just turned 52 and I am pretty much rebuilding my life from a decade ago.
How do I forgive and move on? I am verbally saying I forgive them , for my sake, I want to heal and move forward. I forgive myself for not looking out for me and being to consumed with what other people thought. I am giving myself a big hug today I am down 11 lbs since mid June and I am proud of that.
I do not want to re live my old life, I want to create a new one.