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Sunday, July 30, 2017

Today was weigh-in day, and I managed to lose another pound, although how that happened is a mystery to me. I was craving carbs all week long. Haven't had a salad, haven't made my powerhouse yogurt/fruit concoctions. Nope, it's been all homemade potato salad, homemade wholegrain cookies, and a Friday night wine binge. I did get in a fair amount of exercise, so that must have balanced things out but still, it did not feel like a healthy, in-control week for me.

I hope this week will be better. I'm not sure when I'll get a chance to cook this week, but I've got some healthy bits and pieces to throw together for meals. There should be plenty of good exercise after work every night.

As always, I wish I felt more in control of everything. I feel like all these activities and work are running me, and not the other way around. Instead of enjoying it, I keep thinking just get through it and on to the next thing. And maybe next week things will settle down. And they never settle down!

One reason I started back with SparkPeople was to lose some weight so I wouldn't feel so tired all the time. So far, I've have fleeting moments of energy, but not enough to make me feel like I'm making progress. Today I got up at 6:30, had breakfast and puttered a bit, and by 9:30 I was in bed for a nap. I could have slept all day. I made myself get up and go to the pool at noon for lap swim, and felt fine when I got home, but after a relaxing hour of knitting, it was back on the chore treadmill. Get clothes ready for the work week. Get a supper ready. Get lunch for tomorrow ready. Log it all online. That all felt like drudgery. Soul-crushing drudgery. And I didn't get the past few days' worth of dishes done, so I'm starting the week out in the negative progress column.

I managed to get the floors swept and carpets vacuumed yesterday - the first time in months - yes MONTHS. I was practically dancing today, going back and forth barefoot on the lovely clean floors. Yesterday was a better day as far as energy goes, even after Friday's wine-capades. Go figure.

So what's the answer? I don't have one yet. Keep plugging away, keep trying to eat healthy, keep moving. Maybe tomorrow I can make a master to-do list so i won't feel so overwhelmed. I always feel like I'm too busy DOING to actually stop and make the list. But August is here, so it's time to take some new actions.

Now, off to get a good's night's sleep (fingers crossed).
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    Realization is the first step to positive progress.
    Hope you get a handle on those binges. emoticon
    838 days ago
    Well, hope you can keep up the momentum.
    838 days ago
    It is a struggle. I find if I make my list the night before with only three things for the next day I can usually get at least two done.
    839 days ago
    I know exactly how you feel. I have been struggling and I think it's because I feel like I'm going through the motions instead of living. We'll get there. I was there once for a year but slowly I lost it. We can do it!
    839 days ago
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