Losing Him

The picture you see is of my sweet husband, Brian.Those of you that have been on SP for a while may remember my previous blogs last year about my husband having Stage 3 COPD. Well, he passed away May 25th on our 26th wedding anniversary. To say that my life has drastically changed would be an understatement. I have been fighting depression and the last thing on my mind was whether what I had been eating was healthy. Exercise? What's that? Anyway, I did get on the scales this morning and realized that I had gained back all the weight I had struggled a year ago to lose, and felt so horrible about it. That's when I could hear my husband's voice saying, "Baby, it's ok if you gained a little weight back, but what are you going to do about it?" Right after that, my SP daily coaching reminder popped up on my phone and I said, "OK, honey, I get it!!" So, with that I have returned once again to SP and this time I want to seek out support from those who are here. In the past, I have just used it more as a place to log my food and exercise, but never really tried to be a bigger part of this wonderful online community. Please, remember me in your prayers, not only for this lifestyle change journey, but for the depression to lift.