Friday, July 06, 2007
Well firstly I just want to thank EVERYONE who has sent support & encouragement, to be perfectly honest if I hadnt become so fond of you all I would have packed this in by now, HUGE HUGS You all know who you are!!!
I have decided i have to get back on track, i started this for noone else but me & im only letting myself down if i dont make these changes!!
Things have been, to be really frank, SHIT lately in so so many ways. I think you have all gathered my relationship is not the best & it really hit some lows, it is not all better & to be honest I dont even know in my own head if it will ever be, if it will last or anything!! I had to take a couple of days out & went to see a friend which was AMAZING, the fun me came out to play & i enjoyed it so so much! - then i came home!
I have to give my relationship another go & if it doesnt get better after this i have to think so so so hard, its not the life i want or need!
Because things have been tough ive been run down & now have a chest infection, but that didnt stop me today...I took a power walk to my parents, by the time I got there I was soaking!! I monitored what i was eating (i went over but really not by THAT much considering). I have also been using most of my down time either working on my legs, butt or tummy which is good & at least im doing a little!
Tomorrow is another day & hopefully I will be in that place again, the place that motivated me to start this in the first place!
Thanks again to you all, you are all amazing xxx