Time To Shake Off My Funk (AKA Self Pity)
Thursday, September 21, 2017
Hello Spark Friends, It has literally been years since my last blog. The last year to year and half have been full of changes. Some of them good and some of them bad....well they seemed bad at the time.
Those of you who have known me for awhile know that I had problems with my youngest DD.
She went to college and tried to hurt herself and had to take some time off from college. She went back but hated living in the dorms and moved back home and took the bus to college every day. There were a lot of issues with her mental health and her relationship with me.
She moved in with her boyfriend a year ago. This really depressed me, I went into a depression,
I really didn't talk to anyone about how this really broke my heart. Not because I didn't want to but because I really couldn't find the words to express the depth of my feelings. I think the Lord for my friend Chris who called, texted and emailed me during this time. She always found a way to make me laugh and I don't know if she knows it but she kept me sane the past year. The good news on my youngest DD is she received a diagnosis of clinical depression and borderline personality disorder and is on a medicine combination that is working for her and she graduated college this past May. I also adore her boyfriend, he is really good with and for her.
There is was so much more that want on, my oldest DD got married, my DS got married and gave me my third granddaughter. All of this has left me either depressed , busy and then there have been times I felt felt lonely. As a result I withdrew into myself and didn't participate in some of my Spark groups and only participated somewhat in others. Once I figure out how to manage my time with my new job, I intend to drop back into some of my teams and to be more present and active in my other teams. Please, Spark friends if I haven't spoke to you in a while please know you all have been in my thoughts in prayers. I may not have commented on your news feeds or blogs but I have read them and have prayed for those of you who needed it.
Chris, thank you for listening and caring.