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the ugly truth

Saturday, September 30, 2017

okay, so wrote about how I overworked myself that one day and ended up seeing a black spot. Since that day I had migraines for almost a month, had a bout of cellulitis (which has become rather chronic due to the psoriasis), got food poisoning, had another bout of cellulitis for which I got antibiotics again. On Monday I took the antibiotic and it went down wrong. I had extreme pain in my esophagus every time I ate solid foods. Saw the nurse and she told me: a) most likely it scratched or bruised my esophagus going down and that when I eat it's causing spasms, or b) the pill could be stuck there in which case I could wait a few days to see if it dissolves on its own, or get an ex-ray. If it's still there I would be looking at a hospital stay and being intubated.

I'm happy to say that the pain is greatly lessened today. It's still there, but probably a 2-3 on the pain scale instead of the 7-8 it was.

I have a bad habit; I get sick, i eat whatever i feel like eating. Mostly junk food because I don't want to bother cooking. And, in this case, a lot of soft foods too.

I'm very unhappy to say that I have GAINED 11lbs in the last two months. EDIT: I calculated wrong! I gained 7.6lbs, NOT 11. Thank You Jesus!

My next doctor's appt is on the 19th. To get where I should be by then, I need to lose 19lbs. Obviously that's not going to happen. But, I will be back to eating healthy, exercising and doing the best I can. Maybe I can drop close to 10lbs in the almost 3 weeks I have.
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    Just do your best and don't stress. You will get there, one pound at a time. It never feels good to regain those hard lost pounds but they will come back off with persistence. You are doing so well overall!
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    All this started with being overworked one day leading to migrains! Such a small thing (the overwork not the migrain!!) can cause us such havoc. And everything seems to spiral out of control! It can be very discouraging.

    Sounds like you need to refocus on getting back on track quicker - not letting setbacks derail your good progress. If you truly learn one thing from each setback you are moving forward. Don't dwell on the fall- just learn the lesson and keep moving. It is a ragged edged journey for most of us - that is how we learn what our weaknesses are and how to overcome them.

    10lbs is a big ask for 3 weeks - be carful not to set unrealistic goals as that can be discouraging and cause more derailment. Notice that I did not say failure? I'm learning that is a poor word as any failure is really just another learning opportunity.

    You can do this! Focus on the positive and take small steps that work for you!
    1157 days ago

    Pray you find the way to make "making the healthier choice" your "All ways habit"..
    even in the "woe is me" times of your life.

    Pray you are feeling better soon.

    1157 days ago
    I'm so sorry you have had this to cope with. I totally understand your not wanting to cook & feeling the need for comfort foods. When you don't feel well it can cause us to revert to less healthy options. Can you discuss it with your Dr?
    1157 days ago
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