Wednesday, October 04, 2017
I wish I had never heard the diagnosis LYME disease....today....I'm feeling really defeated, so I thought I would just put my struggle out there. Sorry, if to some, it is negative, but I need to get all the emotional junk out of my head and writing, even though I don't like to write, makes me feel better.
I'm having a hard time writing.....the words are difficult for me to find and even harder to spell! This is part of what makes me so frustrated!!!!!!!!!!! Oh and then.....there is the ridicule people like me face because......I look fine......yesterday you were fine.......Oh.....it's all in your head!
I have been on a roller coaster with Lyme disease for at least 15 years! Every time I think the "coast is clear" and this thing is gone, it comes back! It has surfaced again!
Part of me just wants to throw in the towel....but then.....I remind myself of my faith.....I CAN do ALL things through Christ who gives me strength! Philippians 4:13
okay......enough of that..... this time, as a result of Spark People participation, i AM different.
Here's my plan....I am going to do everything I can to be "kind" to myself as I battle to get my life back! I'm going to follow the Cowden protocol until I know this "germ" is gone, God please help me financially ! I will be kind to myself by doing things that make me happy....brushing Buttercup....taking a long warm bath....watching the sunrise and set.....reading all the wonderful blogs on Spark People....playing with my dogs and goats......I will continue my quest to eating food that will help my body as it fights to get well.
I will overcome......because I AM an over comer! ONE DAY AT A TIME!
Until next time.....I hope you all have a day filled with everything that makes you smile!