Reflection on my own reflection and regrouping !!
Sunday, October 29, 2017
It's approximately 9 months since my last post. I've been off of the site and dealing with weight issues in other ways - mainly trying a therapist at a food issues clinic. I HAVE LEARNED SOME THINGS FROM HER, BUT I'M DISTRESSED THAT I'VE GAINED ANOTHER FEW POUNDS AND AS FAR AS I CAN TELL, SHE'S NOT INTERESTED IN HELPING ME TAKE THEM OFF. SO FOR THE TIME BEING, I'LL KEEP GOING TO THE WEEKLY THERAPY BUT ALSO WORK ON WEIGHT LOSS BY MYSELF. THE COMMENTS IN PARENTHESIS BELOW ARE MY THOUGHTS ABOUT WHERE I AM NOW IN RELATION TO WHERE I WAS IN MARCH WHEN I FIRST WROTE THIS POST.
While I have grown in what I feel confident about in terms of food and physical activity in the last year, there are still a few challenges. These were freaking me out because I had gained some weight over the 2016 Holiday Season and didn't know how to lose it without going back to restrictive eating and calorie counting. (9 months later - I am freaked out again that I gained an additional few pounds)
I had been feeling a little traumatized by this situation, but I do see that I am getting back to where I was weight-wise if I eat according to the non-restrictive, approximately 1800 calorie eating framework I've been using. Plus, I am starting to step back and think about how I can deal with persistent challenges. (9 months later - I am following the same path again. With the therapist, I loosened up on the plan because she was encouraging flexibility. I did learn some new skills, but the flexibility also led to weight gain).
Here is a very quick overview for what is making me feel more confident:
*2017 Holiday Season -a) Make a schedule for the entire period. Think about this as a whole. Plan my own meals and treats. It is OK to eat by myself and get away from the crowds.
b) Join WW for the month of December. Even though I have lots of problems with
them, their approach to the holidays seems pretty workable. And I can use live, face-to-face support in the holiday period, even if I am not counting WW points. (9 months later, planning ahead for the holidays is still a very good idea. Need to think more about the specifics)!!
*Work Travel - Plan ahead for ALL meals and snacks so I don't get anxious about being in an unpredictable situation. Bring a bagful of protein bars, cheese sticks, portioned out nuts, and fruit. This will cover any lags between meals, plus any times that meals have to be missed because of travel schedule. It seems obsessive, but it also gives me a feeling of comfort to think about this. It's not lifelong....just a strategy for now. And avoids the weird thing of stalking Airport food courts. (This is something I have done successfully)
*Food Boredom - Be generous to myself about experimenting with the food plan. Pay attention to what satisfies me. Plan ahead, buy nice food, take time to cook. I DESERVE IT. (This is something I have done successfully. I think the next step is to do it in the context of staying with an 1800 calorie range).