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Friday, November 24, 2017

Sometimes I actually do worse when I claim I will now do better.

It isn't a conscious thing, and it usually makes me wonder how and why I am not the one running the affairs of my life at the time I declare commitment to clarity.

How and why do I then slip into that NUMB place where awareness and alignment with my higher good slumber? It has to be deliberate because it comes immediately after; it has to be a knee jerk reflex that shuts my own responsibility off, into a "No I Won't!" growl like a petulant child.

So what was grew, into my morning scale claim of a solid 20 lbs over what I love to be inside of. Now that it's 20, a full 20, will that make the difference and allow me to make this challenge meaningful enough to be my own victor?

Do you have stories like this with your self awareness hide and seeking?

I say, on this day post Thanksgiving day, that I HOPE this theory will report of my participation by my adult self, to enter and stay the course in this 20 lb gain game.

This winter walking passionate tiger is on the hunt for a 20 lb kill.
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    my update:
    heart to heart with my 88 year old mom this morning,
    addressing the elephant between us, and riding him on out of the room for now.

    working from the inside out --
    eating will lessen as I clean out the repressed emotional issues buried inside.

    emotional eating
    1034 days ago
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    1037 days ago
    You can do it, Dale!
    1037 days ago
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